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        <head>So Near Heaven and Surrounded By Hell.</head>
        <p>Gen. Frank Armstrong&#8217;s story and diary.</p>
        <p>Given by his mother.</p>
        <p>J.D.K.</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0003" n="1" />
        <p>There is no prelude to this story. There is none
        necessary. The story has no beginning nor end. It has been
        re-enacted thousands of times by American fighting men all
        over the world. It will continue in all its glory for ages.
        However, hearts will never be braver nor wills stronger
        than those encompassed in the breasts of "Fortress" Crews,
        who do combat five and six miles high over enemy territory
        - So near Heaven and surrounded by Hell.</p>
        <p>This is not a story of one or a dozen heroes. All the
        youngsters I have met in the European Theatre are heroes,
        fighters, lovers of life and liberty. They willingly lay
        down their lives daily as their contribution to a new world
        that will be free - and that you may pursue happiness
        forever.</p>
        <p>It is hoped that some mother somewhere will find among
        these pages solace and comfort. These stories are about her
        son - anyone's son - heroes all, whom I am certain, even
        during the fiercest of battles whispered one word,
        "Mother"- So I dedicate this story to the mothers of all
        soldiers who fight for liberty and a lasting peace. God
        Bless Them.</p>
        <p>-1-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0004" n="2" />
        <p>February 19th. - I returned from Great Britain and that
        hell hole of bombs only to learn that my roommate Major
        (now General) Bob Williams had lost one of his eyes during
        an enemy raid over London. My part of the apartment was
        blasted away and Bob's English doppers - a brass vase full
        - were strewn to the main entrance eight floors below.
        After a brief "honeymoon" (and it seems that each time I
        see my charming wife I am returning from an extended trip
        of from three to eighteen months. Some day our fox terrier
        is going to bite me as a strange man) - I began a seemingly
        endless chain of assignments. Having been in England as a
        combat observer for light bombardment, I was immediately
        assigned to the Interceptor Command (single seater fighters
        working in conjunction with radio AC detectors). Little did
        I think that I was learning many things that were to be of
        so much value to me later as a Fortress Pilot. From the way
        I fussed and fumed about the assignment at first, one would
        have thought that I had been "cast away" for eternity. For
        the life of me I could not become reconciled to the fact
        that I was to be mixed up with an outfit of fighters. -
        (There had always been a feud between fighter pilots and
        bomber pilots before this war came along. We, bomber
        pilots, referred to fighter pilots as "quick thinkers" -
        given fifteen or twenty minutes they could figure out most
        anything. Today all of that has changed and if it were not
        for the superb work done by the "Thunderbolt" and
        "Lightning" boys in England, the Fortresses would have a
        rugged time). It is a comforting sight to watch a formation
        of fighters weaving over the top of a bomber formation as
        it cruises over enemy territory. Somehow one has a sense of
        security as long as those little rascals are around and it
        is certainly satisfying when you see six fifties spewing
        lead into a Focke Wulf 190. I nearly love</p>
        <p>-2-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0005" n="3" />
        <p>those fighter boys now.</p>
        <p>While in the Interceptor Command, regardless of where I
        was to fly to, I used an old B-18 bomber. For long hours I
        toured the Atlantic and Gulf coast, spotting positions
        where detectors could be placed so they would pick up enemy
        aircraft should they attempt to attack us. Rolling and
        rocking along the coast line, sometimes across the Gulf of
        Mexico and through tropical storms, gave me lots of time to
        think of possible tactics to be used if I were the enemy
        and wished to bomb America. I played war with myself and
        the Government detector system we were trying to set up -
        little did I realize that I would be in the reverse
        position, and not playing, within a few short months. Just
        about the time I had settled down as a bomber-fighter pilot
        the worse thing in the world, so I thought, happened to me
        - I was ordered to Washington to Staff duty - my face was
        so long I couldn't walk for stepping on it. That was the
        last straw - nothing else could happen to me. I reported
        for duty and was assigned a desk and a revolving chair, in
        the Operations section. Once or twice each day for the next
        few months I spun out of that chair. My legs were black and
        blue from hitting the corner of the desk. I tried hard, but
        to save me I couldn't make that desk fit me. Everything was
        wrong with me - I couldn't write a memorandum that was
        passable. My wife threatened to get a room for me at St.
        Elizabeth's - insane asylum. To tell the truth I would have
        traded; "deskitis" was slowly killing me. The crowning blow
        came one Sunday in December. I was on duty that day and was
        out for lunch when the news came over the radio that Pearl
        Harbor had been bombed. I nearly choked on my
        hamburger.</p>
        <p>-3-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0006" n="3+" />
        <p>Monday I spent the entire day writing "personal
        memorandums" requesting a transfer. Everyone I saw I
        buttonholed and pro&#172;ceeded to explain in great detail
        what a poor desk man I was. If proof was needed, I did not
        hesitate to pull my trouser leg up and display my bruises
        made by colliding with not only my desk, but with those
        being occupied by other Officers. No one would listen to
        me. In despair I bought a very small American flag to be
        waved by me from one of the windows of the Munitions
        Building when the boys returned from the War.</p>
        <p>3+</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0007" n="4" />
        <p>One sad day as I sat in my revolving chair resting after
        some violent maneuvers, I had been scooting across the room
        doing a 180 turn at the door, Colonel Eaker (Lieutenant
        General now) walked in. I looked so dejected he figured a
        good brisk killing wouldn't do me any harm so told me that
        I was going to England with him. No one on earth could have
        been reborn as rapidly as I was. I had flown a night run
        through Brice Canyon for Lieutenant General (Captain then)
        Eaker during the U. S. Air Mail so I knew that he meant
        action. Papers meant nothing to me. I tossed them at random
        and then proceeded to kick that damn revolving chair from
        one end of the room to the other. Washington was beautiful
        as I drove home from work - door steps were too close
        together as I bounded for the entrance to our apartment to
        break the news to my wife and son. I met my youngster first
        and told him that I was leaving for a combat zone. He asked
        whether I was going to be in light bombers or fighters.
        When I told him that I was going to be with the Fortress he
        merely said, ''Fooey", and walked away. My wife, hearing
        the commotion, came in and asked, "Is it true?". I said,
        "Yes". Tears came to her eyes. She could see into the
        future - Death, Destruction and Suffering - Total War. My
        eyes could see only the present, - What a fool I was.</p>
        <p>-4-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0008" n="5" />
        <head>SO LONG MISS LIBERTY</head>
        <p>When the Commanding General assembled his staff of six
        Officers in Washington, I must say that I was mystified at
        the conglamoration of personalities present. It does not
        behoove me to state their names at this time because
        historians will give them due credit when this war has been
        won. They were ex&#172;ceptional and efficient men. They
        not only assisted in setting up the Eight Bomber Command in
        Great Britain but four out of the six flew in combat in the
        European Theatre as combat commanders. The wheels of
        progress began to turn - slowly at first, maybe that was
        because none of us knew what was ahead of us. Could we have
        seen into the future-the hard days and long nights of work;
        the obstacles, disappointments and uncertain decisions that
        impeded the progress so much desired, all of us would have
        thrown up our hands in disgust no doubt,- maybe.</p>
        <p>There were a countless number of things to be done by
        all members of the staff, - map study, conferences, Tables
        of Organization, supply systems and the medicos. I have
        never been &#8220;shot" so many times with such dull
        needles. After fourteen "shots" in the arms I began to pull
        up my trouser leg and dis&#172;play new fields of operation
        for the nurses. Eventually and regardless of plans not
        accomplished, we moved out to our departure points, New
        York City -</p>
        <p>For some time I had been floating on a cloud and had not
        given much, if any, serious thought to the hour of
        separation from my family, that was inevitable - In fact, I
        always dismissed the thought when it came to my mind by
        saying, - "Maybe something will happen and the trip will be
        called off&#8221;-</p>
        <p>The hour of departure did arrive - and caught me off
        guard. Parting was not sweet to me regardless of what has
        been written to prove it so. Full realization of my plight
        came to me at the last minute as my small family stood by
        awaiting my zero hour. - My wife&#8217;s eyes were filled
        with tears. She held my hand tightly - I could feel her
        heart beat through her finger tips.</p>
        <p>-5-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_tn_00089 n=" />
        <p>My heart was pounding but I could not afford to be
        emotional - our youngster, to shied his eyes, hid behind a
        nearby post. I felt alone and lonesome. I, because of a
        personal selfish desire, had brought so much grief to those
        who loved me. I would have succumbed to my emotions had I
        not thought of one word, -"Avenge"- Many months before, as
        I stood in the midst of German bombs and saw them destroy
        women and children in London, I made a pledge that I would
        return someday. The time to fulfill that pledge had
        arrived, I could not fal&#172;ter.</p>
        <p>The Pan-American Clipper lifted off the water lightly,
        climbed and turned on course, - we threw kisses to the
        Statue of Liberty as she majestically tilt&#172;ed behind
        the horizon. A tear dropped on my hand and I blew that to
        the other brave lady, whom I had left behind.</p>
        <p>A few hours out of New York and a few minutes out of
        Bermuda the steward blacked out the side windows of the
        Clipper so that Hamilton Harbor could not be seen by the
        passengers. All of us realized then that a landing at
        Bermuda was about to be made. The sign inside the huge
        compartment of the airplane flashed, - &#8220;remain
        seated, - fasten safety belts&#8221;.</p>
        <p>Reaching Bermuda was one thing but getting through the
        customs there was another. Dressed in civilian clothes as
        we were, placed us in the same category with any ordinary
        civilian, - or spy for that matter, if he were unlucky
        enough to be aboard, so consequently we were herded with
        the other passengers into a small waiting room. Traveling
        in civilian clothes was done to fool the enemy and too we
        were going through a neutral country enroute. We only
        fooled ourselves in the end. The German news agency flashed
        our air progress to the United States papers before we had
        completed half our journey. Our class room lecture by the
        custom officials, one in particular who insisted upon
        repeating every sentence, came to a lingering close some
        two hours after the beginning.</p>
        <p>-6-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0010" n="7" />
        <p>I can't remember to this day the topic of the lecture
        except that we were in a combat zone. Well, that is where
        we were headed and the sooner the better, so what? I feel
        certain now that every word uttered there was necessary and
        was supposed to impress us greatly. However, I could have
        told the official then and there that he was expounding
        unnecessarily so far as our group was concerned. We were
        interested in getting over the quickest way possible and
        nothing else mattered.</p>
        <p>The storms came and the wind blew for the better part of
        the following two weeks. None of us had been bottled up in
        Bermuda before for any length of time and the hours of
        delay began to bring unrest to everyone. At first the only
        manifestation of deviltry brewing was slight but as hours
        dragged into days the bounds were broken. That was bad, yet
        it was good, good for the morale of six youngsters who were
        eager and anxious to get their assigned job started. Jokes
        were of the light variety at first but they increased in
        tempo rapidly. To aid and abet us, there were twelve or
        fourteen Ferry Command pilots stranded also and in the
        hotel with us. There were among the group a few, who played
        golf during the day and talked a better game at meal time.
        The rest of us made our best &#8220;shots&#8221; on the
        "nineteenth hole" at the hotel bar. I recall that I made my
        best end around a &#8220;Statue of Liberty&#8221; play, one
        evening during a birthday party. To celebrate a birthday in
        Bermuda was quite an occasion for one young man and the
        source of great anxiety for those of us who were to forage
        for the food, especially the cake. To gather together the
        ingredients necessary to make a cake was no mean task in a
        zone where eggs were as scarce as the hen's teeth. However,
        one ingenious person rose to the occasion in brilliant
        form. The guests were seated, drinks were served and
        everyone eager&#172;ly awaited the grand finale,-The
        birthday cake,- After a dozen or so spasmo&#172;dic bursts
        of "Happy Birthday to you" the cake arrived and was placed
        in the center of the table. It was a beautiful cake, large
        and round, covered with</p>
        <p>-7-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0011" n="8" />
        <p>thick white icing. Hilarity sprang up anew and more
        verses of the same tune, "Happy Birthday to you" drowned
        the conversations of the other occupants of the room. At
        last the time came when we could no longer restrain the
        "Birthday Boy" from dividing his delicious cake with his
        friends, who had been so thoughtful of him and had
        sacrificed so much to prepare the delicacy. Cut the cake he
        must, - we all stood for the ceremony. The knife was raised
        momentarily amid cheers and laughter and then plunged into
        the cake. Unfortunately the cake was merely a round tin
        flour container covered with icing made of starch. The boys
        hand slid down the knife blade and scattered icing from his
        head to his feet. He stood motionless, dumb-founded, angry.
        Across the table someone snickered, old "Birthday Boy"
        could stand it no longer, a joke was a joke but this was
        the end. He reached over, snatched the "tin" cake off the
        table, cocked his arm for a short pass straight to the face
        of his laughing friend. Seeing that disaster was in the
        making, I sprinted around the table lifted the cake out of
        the boys hand and dove for the goal line behind the bar for
        safety. The birthday game ended, seven to zero. The extra
        point was made by booting the young fellow over a couple of
        nearby chairs and back to his sense of hu&#172;mor. Later,
        to even the count the Officer, who had "cut his cake" broke
        the one who had laughed at his misfortune as he danced with
        a young lady - Unfortunately, instead of dancing away with
        the lady as is customary at most dances, he danced away
        with the Officer much to his surprise and disgust. The
        young lady was taken care of by another Officer who
        immediately danced her to his table. The "two way break"
        works among friends but is not recommended for use at a
        public dance. The next leg of our journey was across the
        Atlantic to Lisbon, Portugal and was completed in sixteen
        hours. We did not need the customs official at Bermuda to
        remind us that we had landed in a country strange to us.
        The Government Officials were courteous and considerate
        but</p>
        <p>-8-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0012" n="9" />
        <p>there was a feeling of suspicion. Strange eyes stared at
        us from every corner. Not ghost eyes expressionless, but
        eyes of hate that flashed, - "What the Hell are you doing
        here?", Nazi eyes. They followed us every place, to and
        from the hotel, out to eat and on to the airdrome where we
        were to board a land plane for the trip across the Bay of
        Biscay and on to England.</p>
        <p>Our group scrambled out of bed the following morning
        after four hours of sleep and congregated in the lobby of
        the hotel where departure instructions were issued. None of
        us were too wide awake at that time of the morning - even
        while driving over the rough cobble stone streets of
        Lisbon. A sudden jerk brought us face to face with one of
        the oddest sights I have ever witnessed,. There before our
        eyes were parked airplanes, transports, some with Britain
        Ro&#172;yal Air Force markings, others with German Air
        Force insignia. Two nations at war yet on the same
        airdrome. The aircraft of the same two enemies were parked,
        loaded and operated along trade routes from one central
        point. I stood for a time looking first at one airplane and
        then at the other. I had never seen a German aircraft
        intact before. Hate within me began to clutch at my throat.
        I was to see many German airplanes later, fighters, and I
        was destin&#172;ed to experience the same internal
        feeling.</p>
        <p>The incident that followed a few hours later added to my
        new born desire to eliminate all swastikas from the face of
        the earth. We were cruising at about five thousand feet
        altitude some one hundred miles west of&gt;f&lt; the French
        coast when out of the west came a German two-engine
        fighter-bomber. No doubt he had a reconnaissance mission, I
        want to think that anyway. Surely the aircraft was not
        scheduled to intercept and shoot down a defenseless
        transport in cold blood. A transport that had been parked
        only a short time before on the same field with German
        aircraft. To shoot us down at sea would be a dastardly
        trick - even though we were go&#172;ing to England to set
        up the Bomber Command. The German came in fast from</p>
        <p>-9-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0013" n="10" />
        <p>quartering astern. The transport pilot jockeyed slightly
        from one side to the other in an effort to throw off the
        aim of the German if he opened up on us. At the opportune
        time Lady Luck took a hand in the affair. One engine in the
        German plane belched a blob of smoke cutting off and on the
        pilots power swinging him off course. The fighter bomber
        passed under us at about 800 yards and headed for land and
        place of safety. Our pilot came out of his compartment,
        turned his coat collar up high under his eyes and peeped at
        the passengers. For the next few seconds everyone was
        silent &#8211; silent in prayer of thanksgiving. Some hours
        later we landed in England. The air-craft leg of the day
        read, "Arrived at destination; flight uneventful".</p>
        <p>Our party was met by four Air Corps Officers and we were
        flown to London. Up to this time the Commanding General had
        not experienced much trouble keeping the gang together.
        However, we began to wonder just like country-boys in town
        for the first time. I was not averse to wondering myself,
        although I had seen London before. The City had changed so
        much it was new to me. Streets were clean, debris had been
        carted away and bomb craters filled with people were
        everywhere. To avoid confusion and tardiness we were all
        billeted in one hole. That made it possible for the "Old
        man" to put his finger on us. Naturally everyone was
        anxious to see the bomb damage, London had suffered,
        however, the sight seeing tours were postponed to a later
        date. We had some immediate plans of our own to get bombs
        on the other fellow where and when they would hurt
        most.</p>
        <p>Two days later our crew of six were introduced to the
        staff of the R.A.F. Bomber Command. We were assigned one
        set of quarters. Instructions were issued by the Air Vice
        Marshall to keep the place warm for the Americans. That was
        a lucky break for me. No one can realize how much I
        suffered from the cold the first winter I visited that
        country while the natives were seemingly comfortable.</p>
        <p>-10-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0014" n="11" />
        <p>Work and study began in &gt;earnest&lt; ernest the
        second day. There was so much to learn and such a short
        time alloted to accomplish it. Rome wasn't built in a day-
        even though it was nearly bombed down during the same space
        of time, but we made a concentrated effort to lay the
        groundwork for the superstructure of the American Bomber
        Command. United States Officers were paired off with their
        opposite numbers in the R.A.F. Looking back
        &gt;Reviewing&lt; some of the questions we asked I am
        convinced they thought us crazy. Looking back
        &gt;Remembering&lt; the way they looked at us when we
        seriously mentioned daylight bombing, I am certain now they
        will admit that they were crazy &gt;misinformed&lt;. We
        were just crazy enough to believe we could do daylight
        bombing and we did.</p>
        <p>I was assigned to operations. That word did not mean
        much to others but to me it carried the weight of the
        entire war effort. My office was underground near the
        British Operations Room. Each morning would find me
        hurry&#172;ing to find my desk and begin work. Something
        had to be accomplished immediately. Each evening would
        close with no seeming progress made. To cheer my spirits I
        would go over to the British Operations Block and watch the
        Of&#172;ficers there operate silently and efficiently. My
        mind would seemingly come and go as I stood there before
        all the boards, charts, telephones, and wea&#172;ther maps
        of that elaborate room. How could I ever even be a small
        part of such a huge undertaking, much less be one of the
        main cogs in setting up a duplicate organization. I forgot
        or did not realize that it had taken the British three
        years to complete what they had - seven months later with
        the help of the British our operations room was directing
        raids.</p>
        <p>As &gt;No&lt; one in the outfit got fat because of the
        lack of exercise of too much food, - our living quarters
        and the R.A.F. Officers Mess were about six hundred yards
        apart and the two were three quarters of a mile from where
        we worked. Twice each day, seven days every week, we walked
        that distance rain or shine.</p>
        <p>-11-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0015" n="12" />
        <p>The WAFFS loved it. They enjoyed watching us struggle up
        and down the hills through the rain and when they could
        meet us at a narrow place in the path they would literally
        try to knock one&#8217;s hat off with a snappy salute. I
        would have welcomed a by-pass each day at five. We were
        returning from work at that time, tired and disgusted,
        while many of the WAFFS were going on duty, rested and full
        of pep. Each WAFF we'd meet would salute in tarn and each
        one would come closer and closer to the visor of my cap.
        Finally I would find myself saluting and ducking, puffing
        and blowing, climbing that damn long hill. They were
        saluting and laughing going down to do a ground
        &gt;grand&lt; job.</p>
        <p>Three months after the arrival of the original six
        officers our "family&#8221; had increased to twenty-nine
        and we had moved out to our own site,- American Bomber
        Command Headquarters began to take form. Dreams began to
        materialize, we could see some results of our hard work.
        Some day some one will write in detail the hardships and
        heartbreaks endured during the early period of setting up
        the Command.</p>
        <p>A message came across my desk stating that our troops
        were on the move. For days we had been waiting for that
        signal. We had worked, planned and dreamed of that very
        thing, - Air Corps troops on the move towards the United
        Kingdom. The Operations Block was ready and the boys were
        anxious for test run -my enthusiasm was well beyond safety
        limits. After work a few of us assembled in my quarters and
        drank to the U.S. Bomber Command and to the ar&#172;rival
        date of the C combat C crews. None of us realized then,
        that our most heart breaking and trying days were ahead of
        us. We were too carried away with what we had accomplished
        to even think of the future much less of what was to be
        done. Had we been sane and sensible someone would have
        advanced the query. What is combat and who is going to do
        it? God knows we could not give the answer. We had erected
        a machine to operate but knew nothing of the product</p>
        <p>-12-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0016" n="13" />
        <p>it was to work with. Later in the evening I began to
        take inventory of the whole affair. We had crossed the
        Atlantic, we had studied and worked for months to complete
        the ground structure necessary to bomb the enemy. We were
        ready to go into combat against the enemy - to win in
        aerial warfare. Who were we to say what the correct
        technique would be? Some one would decide that all
        important question, soon. The following day found me
        debating the question of the day before. A week passed and
        I had no answer. Troops were to arrive soon, - my section
        was to issue final instructions, - some had gone out. I
        didn't know, no one knew, whether they were correct or not.
        Daylight, high altitude bombing had not been proven in that
        theatre. Many said it could not be done&gt;;That we would
        be on a suicide raid - none of us would return to write a
        report. The following day I was no better mentally. All my
        interest in memorandums and orders faded completely. I
        lapsed into the old feeling I had in Washington. I hated
        the office, the chairs, the whole damn place. The
        Commanding General called me to his office - (guess I had
        been seen tear&#172;ing up papers or had been heard raising
        hell). I saluted and sat down. His words were few and to
        the point, " 'Army' I know your trouble, you want to go out
        with the combat units when they arrive. I too would like to
        go with them, however, there is work to be done by us for
        them if they are to be successful." I protested loud and
        long by saying, "Yessir". Next morning with renewed vigor I
        assumed the role of Operations Officer of Bomber Command.
        After all I had entered the theatre to do all I could,
        anyway I could, regardless of position or circumstances. (I
        was too old to do combat, so they said). Orders placing me
        on detached service came through a few days later. I was to
        go to a reception base and set up a headquarters for the
        purpose of receiv&#172;ing incoming units and dispatching
        them to their proper station. The assignment was an
        important one and I began my journey with the final curt
        words of the Commanding General ringing in my ears; "You
        make or break yourself as</p>
        <p>-13-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0017" n="14" />
        <p>an Operations Officer on this mission&#8221;. I too
        realized the importance of the successful operation of the
        plan. Hadn't we all spent hours dreaming of the arrival of
        the units. We had planned, mapped out routes and conferred
        with everyone who had any knowledge of the movement or
        information we desired. We had already lived a life time
        waiting for those "rascals" to take-off, - realizing full
        well that the fore-&gt;Ru winners of all combat crest to
        enter the United Kingdom were on the move. I set out with a
        light heart full of determination to see them successfully
        settled on a combat station. At that pe&#172;riod I became
        resigned to my fate to fly a desk through the war and to be
        an excellent "non-combat" pilot. I was excited but not
        happy.</p>
        <p>The following five days I flew from one base to another,
        out to sea and back again checking radio ranges and blind
        approaches. Offices were set up and personnel installed.
        The 4th of July came and we celebrated. The following day
        we celebrated for Kegleman, whom I had served with in the
        U. S. at a low altitude bombardment station. He learned low
        flying at Barksdale and Savannah. 'Tis well that he had
        "hopped" the banks of the Red River; that he had flown with
        my outfit of B-18 bombers hedge-hopping over the hills of
        Minnesota, playing war. The 4th of July "Keg" and a handful
        of U. S. medium bomber pilots flew with the R. A. F. on a
        low altitude mission. Everyone has read the account of that
        flight. Keg crossed the English Channel with a Squadron of
        R. A. F. pilots at zero feet altitude, -pulled up to an
        altitude that made it possible for him to locate his target
        and went in. Guns and throttles were wide open when he hit
        the objective &#8212; so were the German AA guns. The
        German ground defense threw up a sheet of fire ahead of the
        bomber, "Keg" turned, twisted and came back on the target.
        The hail of bullets from the ground caught the airplane</p>
        <p>-14-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0018" n="15" />
        <p>and covered it momentarily. One engine was shot
        completely out of the mounts - Kegleman's aircraft, minus
        one engine hit the ground and skidded across the enemy
        airdrome. A sargeant gunner in the rear of the A-20 called
        through the inter-communication set, "Give 'em Hell Major".
        Keg lifted his A-20 off the ground turned on his good
        engine towards the flack post, shot it up and came home.
        Don't ask how he did it, - I do not know - neither does
        "Keg". He is one of a thousand American boys who have done
        and are still doing the seemingly impossible. Kegleman was
        ordered out of our theatre to Africa where he continued to
        "Give 'em Hell for a long time".</p>
        <p>My assistant operations officer, a youngster, who was
        acting as liaison between the R. A. F. and the Americans,
        located me in the operations hut. He was breathless - from
        the time entered the door until he reached me he was
        yelling, "They are flying, - They are Flying". I said to
        him, "So what! They have been flying in this country for
        years". He said, "Yes sir, but we are flying into this
        country today, now". "Our boys will begin to land this
        afternoon". He was correct. Within a few minutes of the
        estimated time of arrival the first Fortress landed and
        taxied to the position we had assigned it.</p>
        <p>I walked out to the airplane to greet the captain. I
        expected him to at least enthused over being with us, to
        have completed the flight with the first combat crew of a
        heavy bombardment group in the European Theatre. We were
        excited, didn't he know that from the very second of his
        arrival the war would take on a different aspect? Didn't he
        know that he would be a member of a band of youngsters who
        would conduct an experiment the whole world was waiting for
        - the outcome of which would lengthen or shorten the war?
        He didn't even care - seemingly - as he circled his
        aircraft, pulled at her here and there, finally slapping
        her on the belly as he walked in direction. When he came
        near enough he saluted and said, "Colonel I didn't see a
        damn German along the route &#8211; my gunners, were
        anxious to get a work out, -</p>
        <p>-15-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0019" n="16" />
        <p>they were certainly disappointed. Where do we eat? and
        sir, when do we start fighting the square-head, I'm ready".
        I looked at him as he stood there in all his simplicity,
        eagerness and enthusiasm. He was a typical American
        Bomber-pilot, - young, anxious and unafraid. He was ready,
        more than willing, but there were so many things for him to
        learn. I saw and fought him a few months later, he was a
        grown man, a veteran of many raids. His enthusiasm had not
        been dimmed and he was still ready. He had changed, he had
        seen combat, fierce aerial combat to the bitter end. He had
        seen his friends go down from a wing position high over
        enemy territory, He had limped home, with the Fortress
        whose belly he patted each day. He was a seasoned veteran,
        wise in the ways of killing and ways of not to be killed.
        To his mother who had not seen him for months he was her
        little boy. To me he was a man, fighting for all the sacred
        things in life, - the Captain of a Fortress, - an
        American.</p>
        <p>Most of the Fortresses arrived as scheduled. Some were
        not so fortunate. I recall one crew that lost one engine
        when they had passed the point of no return. (That is a
        distance along the over-water route where it is better to
        continue towards the destination than to try a return
        flight). The crew shifted their equipment to compensate for
        the loss of power. A few hours later the second motor
        failed. The crew again shifted the equipment but the
        Fortress con&#172;tinued to lose altitude. The Captain gave
        the command to throw out all pieces that were not bolted;
        down to include personal baggage. That served to be only
        temporary relief. The two remaining engines began to heat
        up under the heavy load, drastic action was necessary, the
        Atlantic Ocean was below, Flying that route at night with a
        crippled airplane is anything but comfortable. The final
        command came, "Throw out everything, - guns, ammunition,
        radio,- hurry we are settling fast. In less time than it
        takes for me to tell it, the interior of the B-17 resembled
        the inside of a well scraped coconut shell. One of the</p>
        <p>-16-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0020" n="17" />
        <p>sergeants told me later that as the last piece went out
        he could see the reflection of the exhaust flames on the
        forty foot swell below. He didn't move for an hour for fear
        the Captain would say, "Throw out all sergeants". Needless
        to say, the crew brought their ship in, - minus all
        equipment and with a full crew.</p>
        <p>About the third day of ferry operations fighters began
        to arrive. At the "jump off" point a Fortress would be
        assigned a number of long range pursuit. The navigator held
        the bomber on course while the fighters flew formation with
        her. Simple? Yes, except when thick weather was
        encountered. The going got to be tough then. No visibility,
        no emergency landing field to go to, no one except the
        mother ship to help the fighters. When weather like that
        was flown through, the fighter pilots nearly came inside
        the cabin with the Fortress pilots. The solution was for
        the pursuit leader to fly with his wing tip inside the wing
        span of the bomber. Each following pursuiter over-lapped
        his wing with the boy ahead of him. All running lights were
        turned on even though they did fade on and off as the
        formation flew in and out of thick weather. There was
        nothing else to do, once out of formation the boy was lost
        with not a ghost of a chance of regaining his position.
        Luck and the R. A. F. were on our side in one particular
        incident. I had Okehed the clearance for a flight of seven,
        &#8220;one mother (B-17) and a brood of six", Tthe weather
        forecast had given an hours safety margin, - then the field
        would be closed in. As we had anticipated, the time of
        arri&#172;val of the flight and the weather held steady. We
        had not reckoned with a wind shift that was not plotted on
        the weather map. Weather forecasts are funny that way. Five
        minutes before arrival time I walked out to the ramp.
        Across the field low hanging clouds were working towards
        the main runway. The boys could get it now I muttered to
        myself but not a minute later. A fine mist</p>
        <p>-17-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0021" n="18" />
        <p>hit me in the face. That meant only one thing -
        visibility approximately five hundred yards. I returned to
        the operations hut and, waited for a telephone call it
        came, "A flight of seven aircraft on top the overcast
        twenty miles at sea", the controller informed me. The
        gasoline consumption chart showed that the Fortress could
        remain aloft for two more hours - the fighters forty five
        minutes. I got up and looked at the weather, it was
        terrible. During the following five minutes I must have
        been up and down fifteen times. On the last down or up I
        don't remember which, an airplane came across the building
        so close the window rattled. I ran outside expecting to see
        one of my boys crashing in to the hills, at that point I
        evidently yelled at one of the ground crew, "What was that
        aircraft?" Aall the natives looked at me as though I had
        gone mad, he replied, "A night fighter&#8221;. A night
        fighter I thought, Lord I am saved, he can bring those boys
        in. R.A.F. operations was contacted. They'd be charmed to
        be of assistance. From that time on I watched the young
        English night fighter perform. A few mi&#172;nutes later he
        came out of the mist with one of our fighters flying in a
        wing position. They circled in and out of the low mist
        until they were headed straight for the runway. The night
        fighter boy pilot lowered his landing gear, the Air Force
        American boy did the same thing. As the runway came into
        view the R.A.F. pilot gave a landing signal by zooming up
        and down,-then pulled away into the clouds. The American
        boy landed - one down. During the next thirty minutes the
        R.A.F. pilot brought in the flight of seven. As the night
        fighters disappeared into the "soup" his ground radio
        station began directing him towards the U. S. formation
        that continued to circle above the overcast. Upon
        &#8220;breaking out" in the vicini&#172;ty of the
        formation, the R.A.F. pilot would fly up to the formation
        and &#8220;pinch off" the tail-end aircraft. The same
        procedure was used for all the American fighters. The
        Captain of the Fortress watched with amazement as the
        friendly fighter made trip after trip, like a mother cat
        moving her kittens until the last of his brood had been
        taken away,- Not to be outdone by some young English</p>
        <p>-18-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0022" n="19" />
        <p>"Whipper-snapper", who had stolen his formation. The
        Fortress pilot non-chalantly called the control tower for
        landing instructions. Instructions were relayed to the
        R.A.F. boy to "stand by" and the Fortress was cleared to
        land. The weather closed in tighter and the real fun
        started. The "Fort" came in on the radio beam and squared
        away for the approach to the landing strip, - visibility
        was poor. The pilot ran out of runway before he could get
        his wheels to remain on on it. He disappeared into the
        mist, a few minutes later he was over the field with wheels
        and one fourth of his flaps down trying a close in
        approach, trying to slip upon on the field so to speak. On
        that pass he nearly ran out of altitude, speed and
        knowledge. We contributed much to his confusion by trying
        to "talk him down". The R.A.F. boy was out in the clear
        listening to the conversation and laughing. After two more
        hair raising attempts with fuel running low, the Fortress
        radio came through with a message, "Send that smart aleck
        out to lead me in". In a short period we heard five engines
        off the edge of the airdrome. Out of the low hanging clouds
        came a night fighter with a Fortress flying a wing
        position. When the Bomber Boy came to a stop at his
        dispersal point the fighter boys were there in force as a
        reception committee. The brow beating that took place the
        insuing few minutes was pathetic, all because a fighter
        pilot brought a Fortress in for a landing.</p>
        <p>The first Group of heavy bombers had arrived and were in
        place. I was in my headquarters completing final plans for
        the receiption of additional aircraft when a teletype
        message was delivered to me, - the heading was, that of the
        Bomber Command, the signature Commanding General. I have
        had never been afraid of the of the "Old Man" but he had
        "slapped" me down so hard on the combat question and had
        sent me away with such curt orders I couldn't be certain of
        anything at that time. My skin began to crawl around and
        butterflies flitted in the cavity of my stomach. The PX
        merely said, "Report to Headquarters immediately". I
        would</p>
        <p>-19-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0023" n="20" />
        <p>have sold my interest in Bomber Command for a six pence.
        I packed and caught the first airplane out. During the
        flight I sat on a box in the rear and reviewed the mission
        assigned me from beginning to end. I had done many things
        wrong in the past, - not intentional but because of
        ignorance. The past was not the present and I was
        "supposed" to be grown-up, efficient. The trip was agony. I
        had been refused combat duty, - the combat unit had
        arrived, no need to be brought to headquarters because of
        that. The mission I was on was being executed properly, I
        thought, Oh Hell, maybe some of my past work had not been
        up to standard, - it just wasn't right to worry a fellow
        that way. Everything from my conscience to my stomach hurt
        me. Those damn butter-flies began to do pylon eights in
        formation. The airplane came to a stop and I got out, my
        knees were rubbery and small drops of water ran down my
        face. England is not a warm country, - I don't remember
        much of the trip from the airfield to headquarters, I
        passed the Chief of Staff without speaking and reached the
        Commanding Generals door. Momentarily, I stopped to collect
        my wits, knocked and walked in. I shall never forget the
        "Old Man" as he sat at his desk writing a
        letter&#172;-looking to me as large as a house. He
        continued to write and I stood after a brief period,
        &#8220;hours to me", he looked up at me and said, "Army
        what's wrong with you? Are you ill?" I didn't realize I
        looked so badly. I remained motionless waiting for the
        worse. The General looked straight at me for at least
        thirty seconds then said, - "I have a job for you". I
        thought to myself, that&#8217;s nothing new, you and I have
        had jobs together since we flew the U.S. night mail through
        Brice Canyon. He continued, - "I have asked you to do many
        things for me, this time I am putting a real load on you,
        can you do it?" Come what may I would try it, - my reply
        was, "I'll do my best". The "Old Man" got up, walked around
        his desk until he stood squarely in front of me and said,
        "You are going to complete the training of our new heavy
        bomb group and fight them within sixteen days." I</p>
        <p>-20-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0024" n="21" />
        <p>thought I would die. I am not certain whether I saluted
        or not, before I realized what had happened I was outside
        running down the hallway, yelling and whooping. The Chief
        of Staff spring to his feet as I bolted by his desk and
        asked, "What in the Hell is wrong"? I replied, "I'm going
        to combat". With that he shot at me one word, "Fool" and
        sat down. If I could have gazed into that well known
        crystal ball and seen what the future held in store for me,
        I would have walked out in reverence and with a prayer upon
        my lips. Packing a bag when one is taking a pleasure or
        business trip is not a complicated procedure. I never had
        encountered any difficulty packing a cross country bag for
        a flight across the United States, even when I was packing
        to leave for the United Kingdom the second time it was
        routine. Packing when one is going into combat is
        different. During the past five months I had accumulated
        many articles; some with value others mementos. That is the
        category I had them in when it was possible for me to see
        them each day. However, when the time arrived for me to
        make a de&#172;cision between the good and bad, valuable
        and valueless articles, they all suddenly became dear to my
        heart. I assembled everything I owned in the middle of my
        room in one big pile. I had before me all my worldly
        possessions, what was I to take with me to my new station,
        my newly assigned quarters would be small, space would be
        at a premium. What does one take to combat I thought. There
        is not a degree of certainty that your new career will be a
        long one &#8212; who knows whether you will "stub your toe"
        on the first trip or not? Those and many other related
        thoughts ran through my mind. I might have remained in that
        state of undecision had not a couple of friends entered the
        room with a loud cry, "Army you must not take those new
        shoes," (I had just recently bought a pair of jodphurs in
        London) "Why"? I asked. Sheepishly they told me how they
        had stolen in and tried on the shoes as soon as they
        learned that I was to leave, - and how well, the shoes fit
        the two of them, - "You dirty skunks," I said, "you, count
        me out already and bargain for my shoes before I am even
        cold. You have made up</p>
        <p>-21-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0025" n="22" />
        <p>my mind for me, I am taking everything I possess with me
        just to inconvenience you a little if I do "buy a package"
        - and I am going to wear those new shoes on every trip" I
        have had the shoes whole-soled once and they need it
        again.</p>
        <p>I arrived at my new station late in the afternoon, no
        one knew that I was to assume command so quickly, - orders
        were enroute but had not arrived. The guard at the gate
        doubted my verbosity veracity when I informed him that I
        was the new Group Commander and called the Officer of the
        Day to take care of me. I was told by the OD, that there
        was to be a dance in the evening at the Officers Mess
        &#8211; &#8220;Would the Colonel be present"? "Later", I
        said - and later I realized why he had inquired.</p>
        <p>To walk into a Heavy Bombardment Group, a total stranger
        with the reputation of being a firm believer in low
        altitude bombardment, is not a plea&#172;sant ordeal. If
        your feelings are on your sleeve do not try it. The most
        God forsaken feeling I have ever experienced came over me
        when I entered the Officers Mess while the dance was in
        progress. Before getting inside the blackout curtains I
        could hear laughter and familiar strains of American music.
        As I came into full view, the whirling couples caught sight
        of me and began to slow down, laughter and merriment
        ceased, -the dancing continued, mechanical like, - stags
        around the floor began to whisper, - the young ladies
        looked in my direction and quick&#172;ly turned away, -
        nearby a Fortress Captain with his officer crew around him
        said, "The Butcher", he is an expert in low altitude flying
        - (The Fortress that led the first raid on Rouen was named
        "The Butcher" and the Captain, who unknowingly named it
        flew as one of my wing men).</p>
        <p>The next day, Sunday, my Executive Officer assembled the
        combat crews in the briefing room. That was to be a formal
        greeting by the Group Commander but it ended by being one
        of the most glorious days of my life. The boys I had seen
        at the dance the night before were present, they were
        fun-loving youngsters all of them the evening before, today
        they were serious minded men, - combat</p>
        <p>-22-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0026" n="23" />
        <p>crews who had never been in combat. As I looked at them
        I wondered if they realized that they would make history in
        World War II; that they would revolu&#172;tionize high
        altitude day bombing. I was supposed to make a speech, so I
        told them all those things. That we were to open the aerial
        warfare for the United States, -that eyes of the world
        would be focused on them, - that the outcome of the war
        depended upon their success or failure. I told them a lot
        of other things; that I did not come to them to die but to
        fight and live and let live, - that I would go in at high
        level or low level, depending entirely upon the
        or&#172;ders from headquarters, - that I could go in alone
        if necessary, that if there was any one present who was not
        willing to follow me I would be thankful if he would stand.
        I knew that not a man in the house would leave his seat, -
        I was exhausted as I turned to leave. The crews ran as one
        man and their cheers fol&#172;lowed me down the long
        corridor to my office. I thanked God then for Victory that
        would be ours. I had seen America through the sons she had
        sent away to battle; truly great Americans. Never in the
        history of mankind will more va&#172;liant men be assembled
        than those few who revolutionized aerial warfare high above
        enemy territory against overwhelming odds.</p>
        <p>The following fifteen days were Hell. The Group had
        occupied two airdromes for safety and other pertinent
        reasons. Transportation was scarce, in fact some of the
        most essential pieces were not available, - lines of
        com&#172;munication were not much better than the "con and
        string" variety young boys swing from wood-shed to
        wood-shed. Often we were forced to use courier service.
        Jockeying a motorcycle around curves in a much too narrow
        road during a black out is a feat for one experienced in
        both phases. For our boys it was an experience never to be
        forgotten. We suffered many minor casualties before we
        developed black-out technique. When tired eyes strain to
        see into the inky blackness grotesque figures loom up so
        near, one ducks automatically; queer</p>
        <p>-23-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0027" n="24" />
        <p>figures and obstacles block the day no matter which
        direction is taken. Unexpected ruts are invariably tank
        traps in a black-out. An osteopath could not possibly crack
        more joints in the back than a two inch incline does.</p>
        <p>Weather did not look favorably upon us often. The rains
        came and remained with us, - low clouds dropped tenacles
        into the valleys and cut off exits by air from the
        airdromes. Mud rolled up on the runways and clutched at the
        ground crews from every conceivable angle as they labored
        tirelessly day and night to prepare "Their Baby" for work
        she was to do.</p>
        <p>Military guards for the airplanes could have been
        dispensed with. Crew Chiefs lived with their aircraft day
        and night. During black-out hours they could be seen
        crawling in and out of the rear door shielding a dim light
        attempting to do "just one more thing" before falling
        asleep on the floor of the Fortress.</p>
        <p>Spirits could not have been lighter nor morale higher.
        Mechanics, cursed to high Heaven as they crawled on hands
        and knees through the mud and oil at their dispersal point.
        Bomb loaders sweated, cursed and cried as they dragged
        bombs through muck and mud, no one complained. The dead
        line for the first raid had been set. Each day found the
        ground crews working more feverishly, - each crew had sworn
        by the stars that their airplane would fly the first raid.
        Rain and cold, mud and slime could not hold them back. They
        would not be denied even when "Jerry" came over to pay us a
        visit. Ground crews silhouetted against their Fortress
        during night raids by enemy when he dropped a "crying
        flare" near our base. The men stood under the wings cursed,
        "You son-of-a-bitch, - you square-headed bastard,
        I&#8217;ll come up there and get you myself if you harm my
        ship" - Fools they were, protecting their Fortress by their
        presence only - Guardian angels willing to die with a thing
        they loved so well.</p>
        <p>-24-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0028" n="25" />
        <p>Training in every phase had taken on a different aspect.
        Ground school was no longer a routine duty, - all class
        rooms were packed with eager faces. Machine gun butts
        smoked dirt as 50 calibres dug deep into the bask stop.
        Tension was growing, - the final day was approaching
        rapidly, - who would go on the first raid? - no one knew. I
        didn't know and could not decide how to draw lots
        equitably, - personally I was going to fly the entire group
        and laid my plans accordingly. Bomber Command Headquarters
        settled the issue for me later.</p>
        <p>Flight Training at first was done at low altitude, - not
        above 300 feet, - not lower than 50 feet. "Hedge-hopping"
        with an A-20 and with a B-17 is as dif&#172;ferent in
        technique as chalk and cheese. An A-20 has two-engines, one
        pilot and is fast on the controls. It can be "jinked"
        around with comparative ease; last but not least the wing
        span of an A-20 is much less. That feature might not be of
        prime consideration to a beginner; later it is very
        important. With a small low altitude airplane, approaches
        to the target can be made between trees, - "Get aways" can
        be flown nearer the ground, down ravines and river beds, -
        not true with a fortress, she is big and clumsy, slow on
        the controls, and hard to change direction with suddenly.
        It is necessary to fly above mi&#172;nor obstructions
        instead of around or under them. Turns in formation cannot
        be made rapidly. The pilot cannot see out the right side
        and to the rear. Two pilots are essential when "Chimney
        peeping&#8221; with a "Fort". The pilot operates the
        controls when a left turn is made and the co-pilot flies
        when a right turn is made. Wing men are in a Hell of a
        fix.</p>
        <p>We had been ordered to train the Group at low altitude;
        fly at that altitude; we did. It was fun. Everyone enjoyed
        it. We played a game of "Pull up to land" - I stood in the
        control tower and took the number of any aircraft I could
        see above the hangars as they approached on the down wind
        leg of the</p>
        <p>-25-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0029" n="26" />
        <p>landing pattern. We raced across our assigned area so
        near the ground young trees laid their branches back, jack
        rabbit style. We lost all the Fortresses we had, according
        to the "natives", each day a dozen calls would come to our
        operations office, "American Bomber crashed", the boys were
        sailing up one side of a hill and down the other. One lady
        called me and raised the devil on the telephone. She
        complained that we were disturbing her baby's rest, -
        loosening the plaster in her house so that it was falling
        into her food, - and we were all a bloody bunch of crazy
        fools flying too damn low. One pilot specialized in keeping
        workmen on an airdrome in a horizontal position. Even when
        they were standing they were too busy watching to see from
        what direction he would ap&#172;proach to do any work. That
        maneuver got to be a mania with the pilot. I called him in,
        after a dozen or so complaints, and gave him the devil for
        being a nui&#172;sance, retarding the progress of the much
        needed construction on the airdrome. His only reply was,
        "make those guys stop hitting my Fort's wing with wrenches
        before I really dust 'em off&#8221;. I fined him $50.00 the
        next day; just because he blew a workman off a ten foot
        scaffold. The same youngster fought ten Germans off a
        crippled Fortress and led it to our Base. He went on to
        Africa where he was shot through the chest; lost two
        engines, continued to fight and fly his crippled airplane
        and wounded crew to safety in what is reputed to be one of
        the most outstanding flying feats of the African
        campaign.</p>
        <p>During the fourth day of our training the ground radio
        called "down to me; I was flying below the poles of the
        radio tower with a message, "Take them upstairs" - The
        message directing me to bomb from high altitude changed the
        complexion of aerial warfare for the American Eight Air
        Force in Great Britain. Even though we were practicing for
        low altitude approaches to enemy targets the outcome was
        not looked upon favorably by a majority of the military
        autho&#172;rities. The main draw back was the size of our
        aircraft. The "Fort" was designed to carry a heavy load at
        great heights. Near the ground she was clumsy,</p>
        <p>-26-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0030" n="27" />
        <p>whereas at 25,000 feet she was in her element.</p>
        <p>The enemy coast-line was matted with small calibre, fast
        action weapons. Aimed fire from enemy installations was not
        necessary. "Squealer boots", some distance off shore
        flashed messages to gun controllers inland, that a
        formation or even a single ship was approaching. - All the
        Hun had to do was wait until the aircraft came in view and
        then open up with his barrage. A barrage, as the Hun throws
        it up at low altitude, is simply a sheet of metal. Pilots
        have flown into some of the areas where the small ack, ack
        was so intense they could see it moving across the area
        similar to a summer rain squall. One pilot played "hide and
        seek" with the batteries on an enemy airdrome. He feinted
        in from one approach but turned quickly and ducked below a
        wooded area, came into view and feinted again. The third
        run up was to be final. As he came in at top speed headed
        for the target, a group of hangars, the sheet moved out to
        meet him. Fortunately the ground fire was coming at him
        from an angle. Flying at an extremely low altitude enabled
        him to slip under the "sheet" for a few se&#172;conds.
        However, the "sheet" lowered just as the pilot turned; the
        upper wing of his airplane was in the cloud of metal, - the
        lower wing dig into the ground momentarily. Back at the
        airdrome the ground crew changed one wing and reported
        enemy action; the other Wing change was reported as pilot
        error. There were many red faces on the hangar line when
        they learned the true story.</p>
        <p>When I think of what would have happened to us had we
        attempted low attacks, my hot Southern blood turns to
        skimmed milk. For days the entire group had been doing
        training essential to a specific type of flying and now we
        were confronted with a complete change of technique. When
        flying at low altitude very little equipment is required.
        High altitude flying is entirely different. Low attacks are
        made in shirt sleeves and summer helmets. There is no
        oxygen mask to adjust, no electric suit to get into, - no
        guns to freeze. There are no long hours in the cockpit.
        High altitude bombardment flying is a combination</p>
        <p>-27-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0031" n="28" />
        <p>of all other types and then some. When bomber crews are
        operating five miles or more above the earth they are not
        actually in man's element. They are far beyond the space
        they were created for consequently they of necessity must
        car&#172;ry with them the equipment necessary to lower the
        high altitude to the level they are accustomed to. Men
        cannot live at 25,000 feet without oxygen and heat. - a
        broken oxygen line is the immediate fore-runner of death
        unless an emergency bottle can be reached. I have known
        gunners to "bail out" over enemy territory at high altitude
        when their oxygen was shot away. Their decision was made
        quickly, - seconds are precious when there is absolutely
        nothing to breathe. Cold is fierce and deadly at 44 below.
        Gunners, especially waist-gunners standing before an open
        hatch, are subject to malfunction of their equipment
        (Things happen in the near stratosphere that cannot be
        explained) In the heat of combat at high altitude when a
        gun jams, gunners have a tendency&gt;read&lt; [written
        sideways in margin] to eliminate their gloves for "just a
        second" in an effort to make an adjustment. Before the
        gunner realizes what he is doing and replaces his hands
        inside the heated gloves frost-bite has done its dirt work.
        Long, weary days in a hospi&#172;tal is the reward. Gunners
        are aware of the penalty they will surely pay if they do
        not keep warm. On the other hand I have seen youngsters,
        who would use their frozen hands as hammers to maul a
        jammed gun back to life. The human element is not the only
        worry one has at high altitude. Propellers "run away" and
        turbos go out, - Motors "rock" in their mounts if the
        propeller cannot be feathered, - and eventually fall out of
        the wing. All of those things were to confront us in rapid
        succession throughout the remaining days of training.
        Generals Spaat and Eaker accompanied by Group Captain
        Broadhurst, R.A.F. Fighter Command arrived at my
        headquarters. I was as nervous as a cat, not the "scared"
        way but a state of anticipation. There was no mistaking the
        seriousness of the</p>
        <p>-28-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0032" n="29" />
        <p>of the "occasion". I had conversed with many R.A.F.
        fighter pilots during my first visit to Great Britain as a
        combat observer during the tail end of the German Air
        Blitz. I had listened to them tell of their experiences
        during the Battle of Britain, - I had seen one of them
        shoot down a JU-88 as he shot up an airdrome we were on.
        However, I had never been associated with one, who
        impressed as "Broody" did. He was to my mind, a seasoned
        product, a veteran of the fighting in France, - Battle of
        Britain and countless sweeps over enemy territory. His
        thirty-seven years sat lightly upon his slightly
        droop&#172;ing shoulders. He did not run true to "book
        form" as the dashing young avia&#172;tor, who flew "Hell
        bent for election into anything," his eyes were cool, each
        movement of his body deliberate, carrying an air of
        confidence as to his ability. From the very first I said to
        myself, '"He is a damn good fighter". Guess I just liked
        his "style", - he had been "stood down" from combat flying
        but requested the "job" of escorting the Fortresses on
        their first raid and was allowed to do so. Someday I am
        going to find out from him whether he "actually" had any
        idea we would make it or not. He was not satisfied to go on
        just the first raid, so he gave me close support when we
        raided Abbeville; returned to his base for fuel, flew back
        to Dieppe and shot down two Huns.</p>
        <p>The conference ended by setting a potential date for the
        "curtain raiser&#8221;.</p>
        <p>The Generals circled our base and headed for home,
        "Broody" "beat up" the hangar line - then rolled his
        Spitfire high into the heaven and disappeared.</p>
        <p>In a way I was lonesome, - deep down inside I was happy,
        happy because the long days of waiting and planning were to
        be climaxed by action. Come what may I was ready to pit our
        "Forts" against the Hun.</p>
        <p>The day the message was received to go to high altitude
        training I called the group together. The boys who inwardly
        censored me at the beginning, because of low altitude
        tactics I was to teach them made it plain that they wanted
        to</p>
        <p>-29-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0033" n="30" />
        <p>remain at low altitude by saying, "Oh Hell, why did they
        do that"? Only a few precious days were left. Bad weather
        rolled in and we "sweated" it out, - ground crews stumbled
        through the darkness and mud, - bombs were loaded and
        unloaded during the hours of darkness as routine training
        in an effort to be proficient when the critical hour
        arrived. The ground crews worked like slaves and never
        whimpered.</p>
        <p>All the "junk" I had carted down from Bomber Command was
        piled high in my small room. I had lots of room to turn
        around in and that was all. One fairly size clothes closet
        occupied far too much space in my twenty by twenty place of
        abode. A small coke stove required more attention than a
        June bride and gave out far less warmth. Friendly mice, two
        or three families played a continuous game of "squeak and
        run". They were experts at both. Some were too damn
        friendly, especially so when they made parties on my sweet
        ration. I came to know the bold ones eventually, in fact
        they were lots of company at night. During the hours of
        darkness I amused myself by going on long "map" cross
        country flights, not being aware of the location of the
        first target I cruised far and wide. Each raid made on the
        map, my Intelligence Section had placed on my wall, was
        successful, - no fighters, - no flack, - I can't say as
        much for those that followed in daylight. Heat and inside
        plumbing has never came into its own on most bomber
        airdromes in Great Britain. 'Tis well one appreciates
        London much more when a twenty-four hour leave comes up.
        Some say that a forty-eight hour leave would not be long
        enough to take away the sting of a period spent in the
        torture "chamber". Intestinal fortitude and the actual
        necessity of a bath are required before one venture to
        expose his anatomy to the cold gusts of balmy English
        weather. I have heard more vile epithets heaped upon a cold
        water pipe than was hurled at German fighter pilots over
        Wilhelmshaven. "War is hell", however, I am not a firm
        believer that one should be constantly reminded of the fact
        both in the air and on the ground.</p>
        <p>-30-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0034" n="31" />
        <p>I shudder now when I recall some of the absolutely
        necessary trips I made "outside"; they have not been erased
        from my mind by time sufficiently enough to cause the
        faintest smile. In fact I have a very lovable aunt, who
        will never be molested by my presence during the winter
        months. Shades of a combat station in United Kingdom.</p>
        <p>The airdromes we worked from were situated in strategic
        spots. They were typical of all other airdromes and
        followed the same general construction. At first I was
        afraid to fly any distance away from home, in fact I
        reminded myself of "Red Riding Hood" lost all the time. I
        am not surprised that the Germans are confused as to the
        exact location of an airdrome in Great Britain. They
        automatically evaporate. When a low haze comes in, - well,
        an aerial Easter egg hunt is in the making. All of that
        comes in handy at times. I watched a confused German cruise
        around at low altitude in an attempt to locate an airdrome,
        he had a "calling card" for us I could have pointed the
        exact spot out to him if he had not been in a hurry; and if
        a Hurrican fighter had not appeared suddenly out of
        "nowhere" and shot the German down. Thereafter I was
        content to "search" for any airdrome I wanted to land on
        without one word of complaint. A few days later I saw the
        twenty year old R.A.F. fighter pilot and asked if he heard
        the British news broadcast, that announced his victory? His
        reply was, &gt;(&lt; "Sir, I do not listen to the news, I
        make it". &gt;)&lt; That was, to say the least, a "cocky"
        answer. I could believe that he really had that inside
        &gt;read&lt; [written sideways in margin] feeling of
        confidence in his ability. When the black days of 1940 hung
        over Britain and the R.A.F. was straining every fiber to
        repulse the Huns in the air, I watched England's young
        fighters display their wares high above the Dover coast. I
        marveled at the tell-tale vapor trail as they
        lattice-worked the sky, - pencil like at first then fanning
        out in ribbon form. An etching</p>
        <p>-31-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0035" n="32" />
        <p>in the sky always reminding those of us far below that
        death and destruction was on the Wing. - That the Germans
        would not pass. That night I returned to my room, O sleep
        would not come to me. I began to relive the three months of
        1940, I had spent in England during the Blitz. I vowed then
        that someday somehow, I would return. The night of December
        8, 1940 paraded vividly before my minds eyes. Hell was on
        the Wing that night. The London sky dripped blood and
        screamed thunder. I was frightened, - Women gave
        utterances, - low groans, and covered their drawn faces in
        response to the ever increasing tempo of Ger&#172;man bomb
        explosions. Strong men cursed and cried as they walked deep
        in the valley and shadow of death, searching for the maimed
        and the dead. Sweaty drops found their escape down the back
        of my ears, - I was exhausted. I knew then that I had
        returned to keep a vow made to myself in a war stricken
        city many months before. &gt;Read&lt; [written sideways in
        margin]</p>
        <p>A well blacked out room cloaks one in the shades of
        night no matter what the watch ticks off or where the sun
        may be. Confusion can reign in ones mind when awakened
        suddenly inside a blackout even under ordinary
        circumstances. To be awakened as I was, following a night
        of restless sleep, by the unsteady exhausts of dozens of
        airplane engines nearly threw me into a panic. I sat up in
        bed and stared into the darkness searching for a solution
        to my tangled dilema. I remained in that awkward position
        until an orderly opened my door and announced, "Six O'clock
        Colonel. Take-off seven fifteen".</p>
        <p>A twenty-four (24) ship formation had been set up for
        our first "Dry run" A dry run" is a flight that is flown
        exactly as the real mission will be. - Bombs and ammunition
        are not loaded.</p>
        <p>Somewhere in the past a strain of human being was
        conceived that knew no meaning for the word "defeat" -
        Whether the conception was a thousand or two thousand years
        ago, I do not know, - I do not care, - I was not
        present</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0036" n="" />
        <p>&gt;Read&lt; [written at top of page] when the
        conception was made but I was "mid-wife" at the birth.
        Per-chance our forefathers who crossed the Rockies to
        satisfy their irresistible desire to be free, - to breathe
        the pure air of the rolling plains or sun-kissed valleys,
        planted seeds of courage in the breast of their unborn
        great and great-great grandsons. - Perhaps those gentlemen
        of the North and South, who crossed swords and fought to
        the bloody end-brother against brother, cousin against
        cousin, laid the cornerstone of a truly great American
        Race. I am convinced of one thing. Somewhere, hidden away
        from the eyes of glamour, these are mothers, who through a
        mothers undying influence, unknowingly, steadied the hands
        and strengthened the hearts of the greatest pioneers of all
        times. Yes, I was present when those men were born. I saw
        them fly into the jaws of Hell and fly out again. - I flew
        beside some, who fought by courage alone, - fought on when
        overwhelming odds were against them and came out of battle,
        victorious. Some mortally wounded and bloody remained by
        their blazing guns, crippling their adversary while their
        injured part escorted them to a watery grave in the North
        Sea. Yes, I saw them reborn high in the Heavens, where
        their deeds of valor were inscribed for all to read in
        eternal gold by the angels.</p>
        <p>The twelfth, thirteenth, and fourteenth of August were
        dark days for us. They were black days for me - I had been
        informed that we would "blow the lid off", the
        sixteenth.</p>
        <p>Each day the formation took off, assembled and climbed
        to altitude. That is not ordinarily a complicated
        assignment but for us it was next to impossible. We had no
        idea what the climbing speed should be, I did know, that a
        defensive formation was absolutely necessary if we were to
        fight off the Hun. One day we would climb too fast, -
        propellers would run away, - turbos could not stand the
        strain, we put on them. The next day the climb was too
        slow. Fortresses floundered around in the sky, like Barrage
        Baloons. - Up and Down we flew. Try&#172;ing all
        conceivable formations and speeds. Men and machines grew
        tired, - there</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0037" n="33" />
        <p>was no rest. We would be given a schedule and a specific
        time to make it in. Friendly fighters would rendezvous with
        us before we departed the English Coast. The Forts could
        not be more than forty-five (45) seconds late over a point
        on the ground. Their altitude would be twenty-five thousand
        feet. There isn't a living member of that first heavy group
        who will ever forget the desperately anxious hours the
        ground crews lived through. Crew Chiefs slept at their
        dispersal points when the formation was "upstairs" on
        a"dry-run". Eagerly they climbed aboard after the aircraft
        had landed inquiring about their "Baby&#8221;. I do not
        believe that my crew chief undressed over a period of ten
        days.</p>
        <p>If we could have slept at night some of the day strain
        would have been eliminated. However, the Hun had different
        ideas, - and too, we were situated in an active area. Night
        after Night the operations Officer on duty would call on
        the phone with the message, "Yellow Morning". (The Hun had
        crossed the coast and was approaching our locality. That
        warning was merely an alert and the station was not
        warned). You could always rest assured that within a short
        period another phone call would come through. - "Red
        warning", - and that the Hun would be over the Airdrome
        shortly thereafter. Unless the signal to abandon the
        Barracks was given no one moved. The greatest display of
        enthusiasm I saw was during a poker game one night. The
        yellow warning followed by the red came through the
        barracks. Two of the officers made an inspection of the
        blackout shades and returned to the game. The German passed
        over and was gone for a few minutes. A second red warning
        came over the loud-speaker - "Prepare to abandon barracks"
        one of the boys said, Maybe he has located us for a
        change". Another peeped at his bottom card and mumbled
        something about the dirty so and so had better go home and
        get some sleep. The dealer placed the cards on the table
        for a cut, - put his steel helmet on his head and said,
        "deal coming up gentlemen".</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0038" n="34" />
        <p>Invariably two things happened each night a dance was
        scheduled, - a raid warning order came in and closed the
        dance at twelve sharp or a German raider came over and
        dropped flares around us. Raid orders were to be
        ex&#172;pected and were accepted as a matter of fact.
        Flares from German Aircraft were looked upon as somewhat of
        a "high-light". Something to add zest to the party. In many
        cases it was a contributing factor as a means to an
        end.</p>
        <p>When the enemy approached the Airdrome the main lighting
        system switch was pulled, extinguishing all lights. Dancing
        in the dark presented a problem. Couples remained on the
        floor standing, waiting for the "all clear" and lights.
        Eventually the youngsters drifted to seats, and made
        themselves comfortable. Tiny candle lights would appear
        from the mess hall. Some one would yell, "Put out those
        lights the German will shoot you", - and, "let my girl go
        or I will shoot you", - many couples would go outside and
        watch the show of "crying flares". "Crying flares" drift
        down slowly emiting drops of fire. About fifteen feet off
        the ground they stop and remain suspended in mid-air. A few
        of us were returning from a nearby town by automobile one
        night while "Jerry" was working in our area. A "crying
        flare" had been released and was drifting across our road
        about 500 yards ahead of us. The driver decided to overtake
        the flare so away we went. Mach to our surprise the flare
        came to a standstill while we were about 50 yards from it.
        There we were, out in the open surrounded by flare light. I
        have never experienced a more helpless feeling. The ditch
        nearest me was not as deep as I would have had it be. The
        German "upstairs" was looking straight into my eyes. I was
        positive of that. From that time on I refrained from flare
        chasing.</p>
        <p>"That day" was vaulting towards us with increasing
        speed. Tension on the Airdrome was reaching a new high. A
        lull before the storm. - I sat</p>
        <p>34</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0039" n="35" />
        <p>in my office and watched the combat crews pass back and
        forth to the briefing rooms. Groups of ten youngsters
        walked together, - a combat crew, - twenty or thirty
        bicycle riders formed up for "formation flying", Cross over
        turns bicycles do not always have a happy ending. Once in a
        while glances with a "when do we go" question would be
        directed at my window. I was standing before the map on my
        wall one evening when the message came. Operations line cut
        in a personal message from Headquarters. "Colonel
        Armstrong?" "Yes, pull the string". "Pull the string". The
        phrase sounded far away, hollow, meaningless at first.
        Suddenly it boomed against my brain, "That Day" was
        dawning. Tomorrow we would be off on the first real run.
        Tomorrow we would go into combat. Tomorrow we would unleash
        daylight aerial warfare against our enemies. All of our
        training faded into the far distant post, - unreal in a
        sense, - not satisfactory certainly, - insignificant at a
        time when death was lurking behind a cloud bank. I
        didn&#8217;t realize that I was excited until moisture
        soaked hand released the pencil, I was holding. A letter
        had been written to my wife. I had filed it with the
        Adjutant and he was to mail it if I had an "accident".
        Writing that letter was an excellent idea at the time. I
        spent hours on it. &gt;Describe&lt; [written sideways in
        margin] Attempting to write a loved one of the so-many
        important things in life is complicated in its simplest
        form. To pen thoughts on paper by a mind that is spotted
        with the possibility of death is beyond my capabilities. I
        have re-read that letter, it could have been interpreted as
        meaning anything. It did not convey my real thoughts, - I
        was positive it did. That night I was "all set", my affairs
        were in order as they say. Affairs are never in order when
        there is a possibility of a letter of that nature being
        delivered.</p>
        <p>I can&#8217;t recall whether I slept much the remainder
        of the night. There wasn't much time to sleep. Briefing
        began before daylight came. - None of us were</p>
        <p>35</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0040" n="36" />
        <p>experts in briefing; we learned of its importance later.
        We did know that we had a target, where it was and that we
        were going to reach it with our bombs come what may.</p>
        <p>The crews were assembled early. They were excited, who
        wasn't? We gave them time to settle down somewhat before
        opening the session. - Nervous coughs interrupted the
        operations Officer as he attempted to point out the route
        across enemy territory. Gunners stood on their seats in an
        attempt to see the exact location on the map where enemy
        fighters were to be expected. A co-pilot seated in the rear
        of the room vomited.</p>
        <p>There was no "pep talk" by the Group Commander. None was
        needed that day. Beads of sweat stood out on the faces of
        Captains. - Backs of hands stroked dry lips as the final
        words, "Men this is the day we were born for" were uttered,
        by the Intelligence Officer.</p>
        <p>The briefing came to a cease when the RAF Airdrome
        control Officer said, "Pilots, take off today will be on
        the North-South runway. I will be in the tower watching for
        your return; don't keep me waiting-God Bless"-</p>
        <p>I recall the short forty-five minutes left to me before
        engine starting time. Waiting for the referee to blow the
        kick-off whistle; the sound of leather covered toes against
        a foot ball; the sprint down the field, human contact, is a
        long, long time even though in actual seconds it is very
        short. Forty-five minutes of waiting and thinking before
        that first bombing raid got underway was agony. I had read
        of criminals sentenced to die reading the bible, praying,
        preparing themselves for eternity, - Also of those, who,
        after long days of suffering were faced with deliverance, -
        a new lease on life-my emotions were torn between the two
        trends of thought, - one equally as dominant as the other.
        Physical pain would have been a relief to me. I could have
        corrected that. The mental suffering could be eliminated by
        one thing only. - Take off.</p>
        <p>36</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0041" n="37" />
        <p>I remember walking by two photographers, who took a "pot
        shot" at me. I thought to myself, "you'd better wait until
        I get back from this raid to use your film - and I will
        return."</p>
        <p>A jeep came along side with my flying equipment aboard,
        Paul Tibbetts, my co-pilot, was dressed in his flying suit
        and sitting on his parachute. It wasn't necessary for us to
        exchange salutations. We each knew what the other was
        thinking. The driver saluted and said, "Nice day for flying
        Colonel" -</p>
        <p>Bombs loaded in bomb racks are enlarged to twice their
        normal size each time I look at them. The ones we carried
        that day were the largest I have ever seen before or since.
        In reality they were small "doses". Squeezing along the
        cat-walk between the bomb-bay racks is an ordeal for me. My
        clothing catches on the metal bars and retards my progress.
        It is necessary for me to drag the parachute harness behind
        me to the forward compartment where an acrobatic maneuver
        is executed before I can hook the straps. Unfortunately I
        entered the Bomber that first day along that tedious route.
        Each entrance thereafter was made the very same ways amid
        some profanity, for being so dumb, and disgust because I
        was superstitious.</p>
        <p>The bomb loaders had painted "love" messages on the bomb
        cases. Some of the words were not nice to say the least.
        However, they are expressions of disgust intended for
        those, who had wrought havoc in so many peace loving
        countries.</p>
        <p>37</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0042" n="39" />
        <p>I was in my seat, safety belt &gt;to end of chap.
        Dan&lt; [written on top of page] fastened and gloves on
        fifteen minutes before take off time. Why the gloves I do
        not know. They were on and off my hands a dozen times
        before I realized I was wearing myself and the gloves out,
        before the flight started.</p>
        <p>The co-pilot eased himself into his seat and adjusted
        the radio,</p>
        <p>The two of us sat there in silence watching the ground
        activity. Men were running from one truck to another.
        Automobiles streaked around the perimeter track dispatching
        men here and there - everywhere. I broke the silence by
        asking, "What in the Hell is going on out there"? The reply
        was, "You are flying only half the Group today - Everyone
        wants to go". "Those are" passengers" trying to thumb a
        ride"- Silly fools; but what would I have done if someone
        had told me at the last minute I was not to accompany the
        formation? Five minutes to go. The top turret gunner came
        forward and reported that all gunners were in place.</p>
        <p>The sweep hand on the clock before me slowed down drawn
        out jumps. Why did time drag at a time like this? We were
        ready; - time should be ready also.</p>
        <p>A slight tug at my right leg caused me to look down
        through the opening between the pilot and co-pilot seat. A
        sweaty, grease streaked face looked up at me. The crew
        chief lifted his two hundred pounds lightly through the
        hatch and stood beside me. His eyes roamed across the
        instrument panel and came to rest with a steady gaze into
        mine. Words were not necessary to express his emotions - -
        his eyes were living lights radiating the very soul of a
        great soldier, who loved an equally great airplane. "Is
        there anything wrong Sergeant"? - I asked. "No sir! -No
        sir! - I just wanted to say good luck and tell, you
        &#8216;she's&#8217; a wonderful airplane". A drop of grease
        must have gotten in his eye, which caused him to pull the
        brim of his cap down on his brows as he laid his big hand
        gently on my shoulder. I reached for the battery switches
        as he slid through the escape hatch.</p>
        <p>39</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0043" n="40" />
        <p>Rapidly the check list of instruments was gone through
        by the co-pilot-number one engine came to life with a
        rifle-like explosion. - Number two, three, and four began a
        steady hum. The whole airplane began to throb. A deadly
        monster came to life and vibrated with anticipation of what
        the next three hours would bring about.</p>
        <p>We watched the airplanes across the airdrome as they too
        came to life and began to move slowly out of their
        dispersal points wobbling over the rough spots on the
        perimeter trunk like huge birds not accustomed to
        locomotion. Forming up one behind the other until the
        column faded from view behind the large tail section of our
        own aircraft. The radio signal for taxi-out came to us
        suddenly. The sweep hand on the clock suddenly increased
        speed. A few minutes before I was pleading for time to
        hurry, hurry and now I was afraid of time. Afraid l would
        not be on time at the fighter rendezvous point. - We were
        to actually fly against time from now on. Time was to us,
        life or death, - Success or failure.</p>
        <p>Slowly we picked our way around water-filled holes in
        the track leading to the runway. The few minutes required
        to do that afforded me ample time to review many years of
        my life. Queer thoughts of remote happenings
        &gt;Spraggms?&lt; [written sideways in margin] which had
        been dormant many years raced through my mind. I remembered
        when I raced home from church on Sunday to turn the handle
        of an old ice cream freezer for my mother. My initial
        payment was the dasher with its paddles covered with an
        abundant coating of vanilla cream. The summer breeze that
        blew through the cool colonnade of our home in a small
        country town in North Carolina as I lay on my back in a
        home-made hammock, came back to me through the cabin window
        of the Fortress. A soldiers dog crossed the flying field
        ahead of the airplane. I remembered the day I brought my
        pet fox-terrier home in my shirt blouse, shielding her from
        the cold as I walked across a huge cottonfield. A freight
        train killed her a few years later. All the</p>
        <p>40</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0044" n="41" />
        <p>kids in the neighborhood came to my home for the
        funeral. We buried her in t he shade under a large fig
        bush, in the back yard. - I cried.</p>
        <p>We turned on to the runway and stopped momentarily for
        the final run-up of the engines. Dozens of grid crews had
        lined up near the runway. Their caps were held high above
        their heads as they cheered frantically. The big ship was
        swung into take-off position. The green signal light from
        the control tower flashed the take-off signal. I thought of
        the officer, who was handling the light and what he had
        said at the briefing a few hours before. "I will be in the
        tower watching for your return; don't keep me
        waiting&#8221;.</p>
        <p>The co-pilot called out "Time". That was the signal that
        the second hand on the clock had reached the predetermined
        minute when the first Fortress would begin to roll down the
        runway. I was not the only excited person in the formation.
        Each hand that held four throttle bars that day,
        experienced a tingle strange to its owner as his big ship
        began to move off. I talked to "Fort" as it picked up
        speed. &#8220;Come on &#8216;Baby&#8217;, you are Just
        going on a practice run today". Under my breath I did say,
        "And it better be a good one". Before I know it we were
        airborne. The first raid had actually begun. My co-pilot
        clapped his hands and laughed. I glanced at the time: -
        &gt;Important&lt; [written sideways in margin] started a
        turn and began counting off the airplanes as they
        gracefully fell into position. I could not help but compare
        their grace in the air to their clumsy movement on the
        ground.</p>
        <p>We assembled in a defensive formation before passing
        over the airdrome. A parting review was flown for those
        unfortunate members on the ground, who could not go with
        us. Those, who had come to say "goodbye" were saying,
        "There they go the silly fools". We dipped our wings in
        salute and headed on course for enemy territory.</p>
        <p>41</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0045" n="42" />
        <p>All of our anxious training hours faded into nothingness
        as we began our climb. The hard days of training paid us
        one hundred fold before altitude was reached. Each Fortress
        was in the exact position assigned it. Waist guns were
        outside pointing menacingly to the rear. Top turrets were
        spinning through 360 degrees. Ball turret gunners were
        doing acrobatics with their bubbles. They had all waited
        long hours for this day. Each time I glanced across the
        formation the name "fortress" came to my mind. I was glad
        that I was on our side. We were a foreign formation to the
        Englishmen on the ground as we seemingly sat still in the
        sky at our altitude we appeared to them as specks high
        overhead, placed at measured intervals in the form of
        "V's". The long drawn out drone of the engines reminded
        them of many bees returning to their hives. The Battle of
        Britain was remembered but not for long. Our noses were
        pointed towards the enemy coast.</p>
        <p>There were more casualties at our Bomber Command
        Headquarters that day, than were suffered by us. When the
        sound of the motors in formation reached the ears of our
        friends on the ground there was a mad rush by everyone to
        gain an advantageous position from which we could be
        observed. Locating a formation that is flying at 26 or 27
        thousand feet by sight and sound is very difficult. The
        sound apparently comes from all directions except from
        below. Some of the ground officers tried to follow the
        beats of the motors turning in circles while their eyes
        were glued to the sky. Consequently after three or four
        fast turns in that position many "spun in". Result, three
        sprained ankles, - two wrenched necks. We had no
        casualties.</p>
        <p>We were two minutes early when our prescribed altitude
        was reached. The beautiful country below had become dwarfed
        in size. Seemingly under</p>
        <p>42</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0046" n="43" />
        <p>our left wing the English Channel had changed to a
        narrow river. Dover and Dunkirque were back fence neighbors
        from our point of view. Lands End was just point of England
        not very far to our right from which could have gone home.
        - if more urgent business had not have been at hand. The
        great City of London had shortened the hundreds of streets
        that originated around Picadilly Square. Ahead of us was
        the enemy.</p>
        <p>The formation tightened up as we flew across the
        rendezvous point.</p>
        <p>My two wing men eased their huge wings in between sty
        stabilizer and wing. I could nearly hear them say, "where
        you go l will go". The remainder of the Group came forward
        to where I could see them.</p>
        <p>The sweep hand on the clock said "go". We were four
        minutes early for our friendly fighter rendezvous. Not a
        spitfire came up to us. Should I on without fighter cover?
        Should I circle and lose time? Were our fighters to join us
        midway, the Channel? Just what should do? The second I had
        feared for so many days had arrived. I could feel cold
        sweat on my face beneath the oxygen mask. The tell-tale on
        my oxygen system that opens and closes with each breath
        began to increase rapidly. I was panting. Thoughts raced
        through mind so rapidly none of them could be collected. I
        could continue on course, eventually arriving over enemy
        territory without our fighter cover and be shot down.
        Perhaps none of us would return. I could return to Base.
        That thought did not remain with me long. He had reached
        the "no return" point in my mind. There was no course on
        the compass but the one that would lead us to our
        objective. The English coast line disappeared under our
        wings.</p>
        <p>I do not know what fighter pilots think when they engage
        the enemy for the first time. Neither do I know what my
        boys were thinking when we</p>
        <p>43</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0047" n="44" />
        <p>looked down at the French Coast the first time, I do not
        think that anyone can into combat, either the first or last
        time, without some foreboding I had flown to the English
        Coast many times before. Once or twice I had pointed the
        nose of my Fortress across the Channel in a "playful" sort
        of way. Always before I could return at will. Not true now.
        Today we were playing for "keeps". - Today within a few
        minutes we would test strength. The French Coast had
        appearance of being barren and cold. Somewhere below the
        enemy was watching us waiting. We were invading the land of
        the Hun.</p>
        <p>The top turret of my airplane quivered violently the
        gunner swung his guns through a 360 degree turn. The tail
        gunner spoke on the inner-phone, "Fighters high at seven
        o'clock." The top turret boys in the Wing Fortresses were
        spinning tops searching for enemy attackers. The co-pilot
        held up his left thumb and gave the command to our gunners
        "Don't shoot, they are Spitfires." Our covering force had
        arrived. My heart slowed down a little.</p>
        <p>Just off the French Coast a battery of anti-aircraft
        guns opened up the formation. Black puffs of smoke spread
        out and hung in the sky. Another group of six puffs came up
        ahead of the formation. The ball-turret boy said, "The
        dirty bastards are shooting at us.&#8221;I asked him later
        if he had not expected that?&#8221; He apologized and said
        he thought his inner-phone was &#8220;off" so he was
        talking, to himself.</p>
        <p>My bombardier, Lt. Beagle began to sing. There was
        no-tune to his song. The one line was short so he repeated
        it over and over again. "I see the target, - I see the
        target". That continued until the big ship vibrated she
        spewed her load of destruction from her belly. The
        sing-song ended with "Bombs Away". Those were the sweetest
        two words any Bombardier ever sang.</p>
        <p>44</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0048" n="45" />
        <p>Before our departure from the home Base, Captain Rhudy
        Flack, who was leading the second squadron, and I had made
        up a radio signal to be passed on to me when his bombs had
        been released. Upon receipt of the signal I was to turn
        right allowing him to catch me on the turn. We wanted all
        of our aircraft in a defensive formation immediately after
        bombing. We expected the Huns to attack us heavily on that
        course. I continued to hold course after my bombs were
        released and waited for Flack's radio signal. No signal
        came. The seat of my pants were literally on fire. The Hun
        was certain to throw a load of "stuff" at me if I flew
        straight very long. "Why in the Hell didn't Flack signal
        me". I thought. Tibbetts punched me and pointed out to our
        right. Flack was off to one side jockeying for position.
        The sky had been clear visibility unlimited up to that
        time. Suddenly the air was black with smoke. Flack's
        formation was obscured from view. We shifted our position
        rapidly and reformed on a course for home. The Germans had
        figured our turn. They opened up with their batteries to
        catch us grouped together. It Flack's radio had not gone
        out of commission l would have been exactly where the heavy
        flock bursts were. The German ground gunners must have
        thought us very dumb or exceptionally smart. We were
        lucky----------</p>
        <p>45</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0049" n="46" />
        <p>Brigadier now Lieutenant General Ira Eaker was watching
        the bomb bursts from a window in Captain Flacks airplane.
        The General picked the pilot with the appropriate name for
        that trip. Thereafter we nicknamed Rhudy, "Flak Happy
        Flack".</p>
        <p>After a few changes of course to avoid gound guns we
        straightened out for our home-bound flight. Invariably the
        wind at high altitude blows from West to East. Going in to
        the target we covered the distance rapidly but returning
        the formation appeared to be standing still. Each moment
        was lived in a state of expectancy. Where were the German
        fighters? All the bad German Gremlins were holding us back
        as best they could until the enemy could locate us. One
        brave squarehead came out of the sun at the last element of
        the formation. Three top turret boys caught him in a cross
        fire The German failed to report the type of formation we
        were flying to his Commanding Officer. After the first
        unsuccessful fighter attack our area was quite hostile,
        enemy aircraft circled the formation, well out of range of
        our guns, up to the French Coast.</p>
        <p>Lt. Beadle could not contain himself longer. At first I
        thought that another ditty was in the making. Not true, we
        were on the receiving end of a conversation between Beadle
        and "Pappy", Ray my navigator. Beadle was bemoaning the
        fact that his girl in the States could not see him as he
        sat there high in the sky, - about as near heaven as he
        would ever be. "She is real pretty Pappy and she thinks I
        am cute". - Puffs of smoke came by the cockpit window. The
        "Fort" bounced up about one hundred feet and tipped over on
        her right wing. Beadle screamed, as he picked himself off
        of the floor, "Who done that"? I told him that a flak boat
        I had warned him to be on the look-out for, had shot us,
        and that he wasn't so damn cute afterall. Approximately
        three (3) hours after take-off we flew across our home base
        in a show formation at low altitude. Captain Flack pulled
        out of</p>
        <p>-46-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0050" n="47" />
        <p>formation and landed General Eaker. The remaining eleven
        aircraft came in, turn and taxied slowly to their
        positions.</p>
        <p>Ground crews swarmed around their "Baby". The combat
        crews were literally torn apart before they could get out
        of their positions. There was no show of bravado or egotism
        on the part of the men, who had flown. A genuine hug or
        casual pat on the shoulder conveyed more to the crew chiefs
        than an oration a mile long could have done. Mingled
        emotions were in evidence but well concealed. The crews
        were tired, cold and hungry. The first raid had been
        successfully accomplished, - well done.</p>
        <p>Reporters and photographers were as thick as fleas on a
        rabbit dog. Questions, questions, questions, - everywhere
        and everybody. One gunner refused to answer any questions
        on the ground that he bailed out over, stains reservoir
        where he waited until we returned and picked him up. The
        truth of the matter was, none of us realized what we had
        done. Everyone else did. I feel that if the Germans could
        recall that one flight, they would knock us down if it cost
        half the German Air Force. From that day to this not single
        U.S. heavy bomber formation has been turned back by German
        fighters, nor have the bombers jettisoned their bomb load
        before reaching their objective. I would hate to be a
        German fighter pilot. There isn't much future in this
        profession.</p>
        <p>I returned to my quarters after the raid. I sat there
        and gazed at the map on my wall and reflew the trip we had
        completed. My friends, the mice, came out and welcomed me
        home. My eyes rested on the target area we had bombed. At
        the interrogation after the raid, I stated that I saw no
        activity. From the cockpit of the lead airplane bombing
        results cannot be observed, - but I could see many things
        as I sat alone. Twisted steel rails; - locomotives on their
        sides gushing live steam, exploding. Good trains wrecked,
        some demolished completely. -Food stuffs strewn up and down
        the railway yards.</p>
        <p>-47-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0051" n="48" />
        <p>Belched-up debris falling back to earth through drifting
        smoke. Hitlers' doom.</p>
        <p>We raided the following five days.</p>
        <p>The British staged a Commando raid on Dieppe and
        requested that we "touch" the area around Abbeville
        Airdrome. German fighter aircraft activity in the
        Abberville-Dieppe zone was controlled from a station at
        Abbeville. The field was also used as a refueling point.
        Our mission was to "pin the place down" during part of the
        period covering the British withdrawal from Dieppe.</p>
        <p>We were briefed and took off. None of us knew about the
        Commando raid. Friendly fighters covered as saws crossed
        the Channel. When the French Coast vas reached my ball
        turret gunner called and said," We are on a 'Sunday ride'
        but someone is catching hell around Dieppe." (A "Sunday
        ride" is the term used when there is neither flak or
        fighters around).</p>
        <p>The formation "snaked" through a flak infested area and
        started the bombing run. The Germans failed to observe us.
        Our bombs exploded on them before they were alerted by
        their radio. The ground radio station directing the German
        fighters in combat over Dieppe was busily engaged. One of
        our boys "kicked" off a load of bombs that hit the radio
        station squarely. Three hours later a new station came on
        the air manned by a "new" voice.</p>
        <p>The German ground guns decided they'd better do
        something about us. Puffs began to break high and wide to
        our right. We made a left turn and watched the following
        formation run across the target. Six German fighters moved
        out to position and started a take-off in formation. They
        cleared the ground just as a load of our bombs exploded
        directly in front of them and threw up a cloud of smoke.
        The formation disappeared in the smoke but failed to come
        out.</p>
        <p>-48-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0052" n="49" />
        <p>I had been sitting up there doing nothing but watching a
        few Germans be killed when the tail-gunner began talking to
        me, calmly at first, "Colonel Flak is coming up behind us
        on our level, - it is getting closer, - it is close," and
        with each word "close his voice would go higher. He finally
        hit high "C" as we turned the formation and dove. After we
        landed I thanked him for saving the formation and accused
        him of having the"ganslings".</p>
        <p>Group Captain Broodhurst, R.A.F. led the Spitfires that
        gave us close cover that day. He returned to his Base,
        refueled and flew back to Dieppe where he destroyed two
        enemy fighters.</p>
        <p>I had promised the Group that they could have a dance
        after five raids had been made. I nearly regretted that
        promise. Not far from our airdrome there lived a group of
        Royal Air Force fighter boys. We had seen them sitting in
        their fighters as they weaved above and around the
        Fortresses over enemy terrain. Naturally we wanted to show
        our appreciation. They were flown to our Base in a
        Fortress. I have never met a nicer group of youngsters. The
        evening progressed rapidly one way or another. The Germans
        came over as usual. Evidentally saw that we were having a
        grand time, dropped his bombs in an open field and returned
        to France. A Canadian fighter pilot and a bomber pilot from
        Alabama decided that the boys who had dates were enjoying
        the dance too much. A two-man raid was staged in the middle
        of the dance floor. The two entered on bicycles and began a
        series of circles. The bomber pilot carried a sack of Irish
        potatoes which were used as bombs on the dance floor. The
        fighter pilot was armed with a sack of flour. Anyone, who
        attempted to intercept the "potato bomber" was met with a
        long burst of flour &gt;Important&lt; [written sideways in
        margin] thrown by the fighter boy. Before the target was
        completely destroyed, six big boys built a human pyramid in
        the center of the room. The two culprits were passed up to
        the top where they were tied together by their shirt-tails
        and hung across a steel rafter. From that lofty position
        they "hung the dance</p>
        <p>-49-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0053" n="50" />
        <p>out" the remainder of the evening. Our rest and
        relaxation was short-lived. The white-hot heat was turned
        on. We had been raiding enemy territory at will. The
        Germans got mad; we got madder. Flights were no longer
        raids, - raids had developed into air battles. Fighters
        that gave us close support were engaged by enemy fighters,
        leaving the Fortresses "on their own". We began cutting our
        teeth so to speak on F.W. 190's and M.E. 109 G - German
        fighters refused to stand by and watch us unmolested on our
        way to and from the target. They began to bear into the
        formation, often holding their fire until they were within
        two hundred yards or less. It was not unusual for them to
        fly through our formation rolling and shooting all the
        while. Attacks were made with such speed and ferocity often
        the Wing of the Fighter would cog-wheel with the Fortress
        Wing. Some attempts were made to ram our big ships -
        intentional or was otherwise the maneuvers were hair
        raising. The gun fire from both sides was brilliant. Tracer
        bullets streaking the sky criss-crossed forming lattice
        work patterns.</p>
        <p>Puffs of smoke from 20 mm guns shot at the formation
        from the rear, floated by the cabin window harmlessly; -
        their damage had been done. Quartering and head on attacks
        exposed the muzzle flash of enemy wing guns; - long red
        tongues pointing at you. Fortress gunners opening up with
        their guns in retaliation - vibrating the big ship as she
        plowed ahead through a Hell of steel. The top turret bay
        flattening two 50 calibres on the cabin roof, filling the
        compartment with smoke and your ears with thunder. Enemy
        fighters disintegrating in thin air. Others veritable balls
        of fire streaming long tails of black smoke falling
        vertically earthward. Fortresses, hard hit, struggling with
        every ounce of power to hold formation; to defend and be
        defended. Gunners working their 50's to the maximum,
        warding off the attacks</p>
        <p>-50-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0054" n="51" />
        <p>concentrated on a crippled Queen. Fighting to the death,
        for victory.</p>
        <p>We had made numerous trips, short thrusts into enemy
        territory. Each fight returned to report "all aircraft
        safe". Not true for personnel. Killed and wounded were
        flown home sometimes huddled together, clutching each other
        trying to sap the last ounce of warmth from a body rapidly
        growing cold. The Germans killed or wounded a few crew
        members each trip. They paid a dear price in exchange.</p>
        <p>The Luftwaffe commanders wanted a Fortress. They must
        have one with the guns in place before their fighter
        tactics against us could be perfected. We had no intention
        of dropping a bomber for them. Instructions were issued to
        all pilots to destroy a doomed "Fort" either in the air or
        on the ground. Defeat the Germans at all cost.</p>
        <p>Attacks against us changed daily. We sat up nights
        working out model defensive formations to meet the
        situation.</p>
        <p>Returning from one raid the Spitfires were weaving above
        us and to the rear. A couple of frisky boys were slow
        rolling just for the Hell of it. The tail-gunner called,
        asking if the R.A.F. and Huns had formed a truce. The
        co-pilot laughed and asked why such a silly question.
        "Well", said the gunner, "a 190 is flying a tail end
        position with our fighters." The fighter leader spotted the
        Hun in his rear view mirror about the same time. Exciting
        events happened the following few seconds. Not knowing
        whether the "square-head" was going to shoot the tail-end
        fighter down or not the R.A.F. leader dove his outfit
        across our formation using us as a flak post to shoot the
        enemy down. The German boy had other ideas and had doped
        out what the reaction would be. He followed the English up
        to and behind the last bomber. There he fell out of
        formation and began rolling and shooting. Three of his
        buddies who had been watching from a safe altitude in the
        sun cams in fast and nearly finished Lt. Lipsky off.</p>
        <p>-51-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0055" n="52" />
        <p>Lipsky called me from an auxiliary field after we had
        landed at our Base to give the following information: "Was
        forced out of formation near the enemy coast. Number one
        engine caught fire and was feathered. Rudder controls
        severed on right side. Right aileron damaged by 20 mm
        shells. Left flipper shot away. Number four engine hit by
        20 mm and feathered. Enemy attacks continued to twenty
        miles off French Coast. Nine hundred small calibre holes in
        the fuselage of the airplane. Two dead, two wounded".</p>
        <p>I learned later that Lipsky crossed the English Coast on
        two engines and flew across an airdrome with his crippled
        "Fort". After looking at the length of the runway he
        decided not to land there for fear he would hurt some of
        his crew members. Twenty miles inland he sat "her" down
        without further damage.</p>
        <p>It was not Lipsky's lot to make more raids. He was
        flying on left wing when we went after an airplane factory
        north of Paris. Fifteen miles off LeHavre, two 190's came
        down on the head of the formation out of the sun. One
        passed the nose of our ship so fast I would not have seen
        him if my eyes had been winking at that instant. His speed
        and the slight evasive action we were doing made him miss.
        One always drifts up or down, right or left when over enemy
        territory. To sit still is a very definite indication that
        one is tired of living. The second German was more
        successful. One of his 20 mm shells exploded in number two
        engine of the second element leader, who wobbled around
        momentarily before regaining his position. The two attacks
        were a signal for the curtain to be raised. The feature
        show was in the making. Off to the side 190's were breaking
        through the haze, noses held high, like mushroons through
        thin top sail. I thought of the expression, "climbing out
        of a silo" - I watched them continue their</p>
        <p>-52-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0056" n="53" />
        <p>climb far out in front of our formation. They really
        didn't worry me unduly knowing that we had friendly fighter
        cover near by. That is what I thought. The formation
        tightened up. The co-pilot made hand signs that the captain
        on three engines was holding his own. Gunners were
        cluttering the inner comm with short crisp sentences spoken
        in high tones. One's voice is invariably pitched higher
        than is normal when combat is about to start. Mine never
        settled down I fear. Had I known then what I learned later
        that our fighter cover had been engaged by the enemy and
        drawn away from us; that we were on our own; I would have
        been more excited than usual. I was not long in being
        convinced that all Hell had broken loose. Every part of the
        sky was filled with those little pests. They were having a
        field day. Terriors maneuvering for positions from which
        they could dart in and nick us. My top-turret boy gave a
        short burst in the direction of three, who were forming up
        on our right. The leader ducked away momentarily, rocked
        his wings as a signal to reform and return. Luckily an
        extra bombardier, Lt. Mansell was in the nose of my ship.
        He was on the tip to "gain experience" as he put it. He was
        actually there because he could not remain on the ground
        when the formation took off. Mansell swung his right nose
        gun into position and threw a short burst at the Hun leader
        maneuvering for range. The top turret boy got excited and
        held his trigger down on a long burst. Tracers passing over
        the Hun gave him the opportunity he had been waiting for to
        duck under the tracers and come in. Unfortunately for him
        he had not reckoned with the few shots Mansell had fired. I
        had turned my head to see what was going on outside the
        left window, - plenty. Over the inner comm the co-pilot
        said, "Here they come". The enemy fighters began firing at
        about 800 yards. Mansell released a one second burst as
        they settled in the dive and watched tracers bounce off the
        front armor plate of the flight leaders airplane.</p>
        <p>-53-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0057" n="54" />
        <p>At about 500 yards both Mansell and the top turret "sat
        down" on him. Small pieces of wing structure flew off the
        109 and trickled behind. The pilot in an attempt to right
        his aircraft or to make a left turn brought his right wing
        up just a second. The three 50's sawed it off close to the
        cockpit. The pilot pinned in his part of the airplane
        followed by one wing passed over the motion and
        disappeared. Before I could catch my breath Mansell called
        on the inner-comm, "Pardon Colonel, didn't mean to shoot
        him down in your lap&#8221;. What became of the other two
        enemy fighters I do not know. They pulled up over the
        formation where twelve guns were working. Reports came in
        from the tail-gunner that combat was being staged from all
        quarters on the following elements. A play by play
        description of rear action is given to the leader of the
        formation by the tail-gunner. That is if the leader has
        time to listen. Sometimes you don't hear anything and often
        you have landed before you realize that you have been told
        something. Suddenly there was a lull in the fighting. That
        is never a good sign you can always bet your bottom dollar
        that soon thereafter everything will be thrown at you to
        include Hermans Medals. Gunners get nervous, impetuous. The
        atmosphere even at 25000feet is sulky. Waiting and waiting
        for some unseen object to fall on you. Walking through high
        grass at night bare-footed expecting a rattler to strike
        each time a step is taken is not a favorable comparison. My
        reaction was to stop the formation still in the sky, wait
        for the devils to come out in the open and then fight our
        way to the target. Fortress formations stop for no man
        friend or foe when the objective is ahead, and too, we were
        doing a good 240 miles per hour.</p>
        <p>Suspense was suddenly cured. The initial point had been
        reached. The formation was maneuvered for the bombing run.
        Bomb bay doors were lowered, ahead of us was the target.
        Between us and the target were swarms of German</p>
        <p>-54-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0058" n="55" />
        <p>fighters, dozens and dozens. Seventy-five in all. The
        truth suddenly dawned upon me. The breathing spell we
        enjoyed was not a gift from, the Luftwaffe Commander. While
        we were worrying about him he was consolidating his force.
        Everything he commanded was in position to hit us full in
        the face. Thank God the fighting slackened off just enough
        for us to make "S" turns and get the crippled Fortresses in
        close. Jerry did not have a "Fort" and I had no idea of
        persecuting him with one. He had other plans
        unfortunately.</p>
        <p>The storm broke suddenly. As though by a pre-arranged
        signal enemy fighters came at us from every figure on the
        clock. We were concerned primarily with those attacking
        from the eleven, twelve and one o'clock positions. Two,
        three and six, 109's came at us from above and below,
        simultaneously, - followed closely by others. Gun flashes
        were blinding. A German bailed out high and above the
        formation. We nearly ran him down. His airplane spun down
        before we reached it. Every space was filled with tracers.
        Turrets cross-firing reminded one of serachlight beams. We
        were a veritable flak post. The Germans continued to bear
        in. We steadily moved forward. Three miniature dark clouds
        exploded near my window followed by two on the co-pilot's
        side. The Hun was skidding when he fired that bursts at the
        lead ship. Otherwise the five shots would have ripped our
        innards out. I could hear friendly fighters talking to each
        other. &#8220;Break away right Red two&#8221; - "look out
        Red three he's on your tail". &#8220;Close up&#8221;! -
        "What are you trying to do, get me killed"? "Where are the
        bombers"? "There is a Hell of a fight to the left of us".
        "That's the target". A Polish fighter pilot nearly knocked
        my head set off. He was shooting and cursing in broken
        English. My gunners had settled down to the business of
        killing. It was kill or be killed. They were doing a
        commendable job. The tempo increased, if such were
        possible. A long burst from the top turret blew the signal
        pistol</p>
        <p>-55-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0059" n="56" />
        <p>out of its position in the top of the cabin. Powder
        smoke filled the compartment. I just knew that a 20mm had
        exploded in the cockpit. For an instant I looked to see how
        badly the co-pilot was hurt. He was seated well forward
        with his nose flattened against the shatter-proof glass.
        Each time a fighter came in he buried his nose deeper. It's
        Hell sitting there with nothing to do but wait to be
        hit.</p>
        <p>I opened my mouth attempting to call our fighters and
        give our position. No sound came out. My voice had left me.
        I tried again. Water, - I wanted water badly. My tongue was
        parched, - dry lips, - water seeped through my gloves - ran
        down my wrist, - drops of cold sweat slowly emerged from
        beneath my helmet.</p>
        <p>After three attempts I gave my call sign to our
        fighters. Why I cannot say. I knew that they were fighting
        for every inch of sky around them. It is apparent to me now
        that I wanted to talk to someone. I was not prepared nor
        ready to die. I wanted help and was not ashamed of it. The
        message I sent out was in sheer desperation. "Come over
        here if you want to have some fun".</p>
        <p>I switched the radio back to inner comm to close off all
        outside communication. We were two minutes from the target.
        Beadle's voice drifted through my head-set, slow methodical
        business-like. "Turn left, - left, - left." Steady -
        steady". "On course". My eyes were glued to the direction
        instruments. Soon we would be in the position we'd been
        fighting for. The tail-gunner reported the outfit as being,
        "Mighty Nifty".</p>
        <p>For some unknown reason I looked up. I couldn&#8217;t
        believe my eyes. Headed straight for the lead airplane was
        a 109. At first I thought that he was on fire, - a halo of
        smoke dimmed the outline of the fighters yellow nose.
        Seconds later I learned that the smoke was the aftermath of
        all forward guns firing at maximum speed. I stood the
        Fortress on her tail then settled back on</p>
        <p>-56-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0060" n="57" />
        <p>the bombing run. The German skidded, raked Lipsky across
        the nose with a long burst and dove. Lipsky's number three
        engine began to burn, - number four engine puffed small
        ringlets of smoke. The crippled Fortress slowed down.
        Beadle requested a three degree turn right. The ball-turret
        boy and tail-gunner were chattering like monkeys. When our
        nose was raised to avoid a collision with the 109 it
        brought the German face to face with the "bubble" guns.
        Parts were falling off the enemy fighter when last seen by
        the rear gunner. That was the second enemy fighter shot
        down by our gunners that day.</p>
        <p>Beadle continued his sing-song, "steady, steady," -
        "bombs away", followed by, "Now, get away from that gun
        Mansell so I can shoot one down". "Who do you think you
        are, Buffalo Bill"?</p>
        <p>I turned from that bombing run with a heavy heart. I had
        lost a bomber on the seventh raid.</p>
        <p>Lipsky radioed a message to me, "Am hit hard must go
        down now, - see you in a couple of weeks". My tail-gunner
        gave me a detailed account of the fight that followed
        between the "Fort" and three Hun fighters before the
        airplane crash landed near the mouth of the Somme. We heard
        from that crew later. They are "sweating it out in a German
        Prison Camp".</p>
        <p>Many times we had returned to base and circled the
        airdrome while the pilots with wounded aboard shot an
        emergency flare and landed. That ordeal was common
        practice, - wing flaps remained in the down position as a
        signal to the ambulance driver to report immediately, was
        given. Always the airplanes had returned, - today was
        different. A feeling of nausea came over me as I eased the
        four throttles back for our let down across the Channel. I
        looked out at what had been an empty space on my left wing.
        Sometime during the returning flight one of the youngsters
        from the rear had moved into position beside me, shielding
        me from flanking attacks. His vertical fin</p>
        <p>-57-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0061" n="58" />
        <p>had shell hole in it you could throw a wash tub through.
        My spirits were lifted.</p>
        <p>After we landed I got out near the control tower to
        dispatch a message, "One airplane and crew failed to
        return" - the words looked - foreign to me. I re-read it
        twice before signing it.</p>
        <p>From the top of the tower the airplanes could be seen as
        they limped into their dispersal points. Far off to one
        edge of the field there was an empty space. A small tent
        swayed back and forth as men in soiled coveralls extracted
        tools and kits from the inside and placed them in piles to
        be loaded in a truck later. The movements of the men were
        slow, tired like. Occasionally the crew chief would shield
        his eyes with a pair of greasy gloves and gaze into the sky
        towards the East, hopefully. He had been told that his
        "Baby" would not return, ever. He had heard that before,
        yet she came staggering home. This time it was true. She
        had gone, - forever. He lowered his hand and silently
        motioned to the others. Five weary and heartsick soldiers
        walked slowly across the flying field towards their
        barracks. A funeral procession and tribute to a great Queen
        of the Sky.</p>
        <p>I knew then as never before what an airplane was to the
        men, who had cared for her, but most of all, what those men
        accomplished and sacrificed so that the great air battles
        could continue.</p>
        <p>The following day I sent them the following message:
        -</p>
        <p>"To the Officers and Enlisted Men ______th Bombardment
        Group: -</p>
        <p>It is my privilege to express my gratitude to you for
        the services you have rendered. I cannot meet you all
        personally, as much as I would like to, so I am taking this
        manner of expressing my personal gratitude to you
        individually and collectively.</p>
        <p>-58-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0062" n="59" />
        <p>&gt;Important&lt; [written on top of page] Our combat
        crews go into action, bomb the enemy, shoot down their
        planes then successfully return to our stations. For that
        they are acclaimed Heroes and decorated by our government.
        All this is well deserved. However to me and the entire
        Group, you men on the line, are the unsung heroes of all
        our successful engagements. I, as Group Commander, and the
        combat crews of this organization fully realize and
        appreciate all that you have done. Without your
        cooperation, the_______th would not have accomplished what
        it has. Continue your good work and no more could be asked
        of any man.</p>
        <p>It is my desire that every soldier under my command feel
        that he had a personal interest in having placed
        the______th Bombardment Group among the foremost fighting
        organizations the United States Air Force has ever
        produced. You no doubt fully realize that during our few
        days of day operation in this theater we have
        revolutionized day bombardment. The whole world has been
        astounded and amazed by our accomplishments. After our
        first day-light raid, the traffic in New York City was
        blocked when the news was flashed by electrical signs on
        Broadway. The British Bomber Command and R.A.F. Fighter
        Command has acclaimed the bombing of Abbeville as one of
        the outstanding accomplishments of the successful
        withdrawal of British troops from Dieppe.</p>
        <p>The _____th has made history. We shall continue to
        accomplish the seemingly impossible. On the last raid the
        ____th was attacked by 75 enemy fighters when it had no
        friendly pursuit protection. The Hun paid for that with
        twelve enemy aircraft confirmed and 12 probable aircraft
        shot down. That makes a total of one entire enemy fighter
        squadron.</p>
        <p>So I give you a toast, "Here's to the Hun - a splendid
        fighter. and here's to the ____th, his Master!" All because
        of you men and your untiring efforts. God Bless You".</p>
        <p>Generals Spaatz and Eaker came to our airdrome to
        decorate the first twenty-five officers and men who had
        distinguished themselves in combat against the enemy. The
        Group, with the exception of the necessary guard, was
        present - two squadrons faced the reviewing stand flanked
        by one squadron on each side forming a square cornered
        "U".</p>
        <p>Thousands of feet above our ground formation friendly
        fighters searched the sky for enemy inturders. We were not
        taking any chances of being on the receiving end of a
        surprise attack from the air. When we were dispersed the
        fighter leader brought his outfit down and gave us an
        exhibition of formation and acrobatic flying none of us
        shall forget.</p>
        <p>-59-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0063" n="60" />
        <p>The men to be decorated were lined abreast facing the
        Generals. One, attended by a Nurse, was in a wheel chair.
        Others were dressed with bandages across their faces
        covering flak or bullet creases. A few arms were lashed
        closely to the body: Most of the boys stood erect - eyes
        straight ahead - proud of the part they were playing in the
        grim game of war. As I looked at them I thought-they should
        be proud and justly so. I had been near most of them when
        they were wounded. I had watched the Medics efficiently
        extract them from crippled airplanes. Some underwent
        emergency operations as they lay on the floor of their
        Fortress. Others walked away from their ship, only to fall
        before reaching transportation - too full of pride to admit
        the need of assistance. None complained. Each always
        solicitous of the welfare of other wounded crew members.
        Greater love hath no man than that.</p>
        <p>I well remember how excited the Group was the day our
        first wounded returned from combat. We were to see much of
        that later. The boys had not really been angry up to that
        time. From then on every man was out for blood. 'Tis not a
        nice statement to make but that one incident did more to
        raise the fighting spirit of the outfit to a</p>
        <p>-60-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0064" n="61" />
        <p>level that was most costly to the Germans than any other
        save one. The Fortress that gave the distress signal - dead
        aboard - was so thickly surrounded by combat crews the
        Medicos resorted to requesting the M. P.'s to clear the
        area before they could get the ambulance in place. That
        demonstration was not the direct outcome of mere curiosity.
        Everyone was desirous of being helpful. They couldn't
        believe that the damn Germans had killed one of our crew
        members. After that tragedy, no one would remain on the
        ground when the formation took off. The mute reminder of
        that fateful day, a knapsack marked with the officers name
        and filled with his toilet articles remained in the mens
        washroom until I had it taken away - the space from which
        it was removed remained empty many days thereafter.</p>
        <p>As each officer and enlisted man stepped forward one
        pace, saluted and stood at attention while the medal, in
        some cases two, was pinned on I recalled some of the acts
        of heroism. (Some are so fantastic even Hollywood would
        refuse to believe them.)</p>
        <p>Among those present none were more elated than I, yet
        deep down inside I was sad. I had been told that the Group
        would move out without me. At first I couldn't convince
        myself that anyone else could</p>
        <p>-61-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0065" n="62" />
        <p>lead the outfit as well as I could. Naturally that was a
        false conception - selfishness on my part. I had grown to
        actually love everyone - fighting side by side with men
        affects the soul someway. Together we had bragged that "we
        would cut a bloody streak around the world five miles deep
        and five miles wide". The Group has already gone a long way
        towards accomplishing what we set out to do - without
        me.</p>
        <p>The first three men to be decorated were members of the
        same combat crew - Pilot, bombardier and engineer gunner.
        They were returning information when a 20 mm exploded in
        one engine. Fighting was brisk and enemy fighters were
        numerous but not too eager. A second shell exploded in the
        cockpit, killing the co-pilot and severely injuring the
        pilot's right side - later it became useless. The big ship
        reeled out of formation momentarily - just long enough to
        be hit once more. The young pilot, by sheer willpower and
        superhuman endurance, lifted the dead copilot off the
        control column where he had fallen and regained his
        position. The strain and effort sapped every ounce of
        vitality from the youngster and he began to lose
        consciousness - the Fortress began to drift out of
        formation. The</p>
        <p>-62-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0066" n="63" />
        <p>bombardier had heard the explosion. Sensing there was
        trouble in the cabin he began to crawl on his hands and
        knees in that direction - a position between the pilot and
        copilot was reached just as the pilot collapsed. The
        bombardier had flown as pilot in a small airplane, but
        never as the pilot of a Fortress. Unhesitatingly he wedged
        his body between the two boys in the cockpit seats, resting
        their heads on his shoulder, and began maneuvering the
        airplane by the aileron control - the rudder couldn't be
        reached. Fortunately for all a wing man who saw what was
        taking place shifted his position enough to cover his
        crippled pal and drive off the fighter attacks. The top
        turret gunner came out of his position as soon as the sky
        was clear and administered first aid to the pilot who
        regained consciousness. How, no one knows, the two
        inexperienced boys lifted their dead friend from his seat
        and carried him to the "greenhouse" (Navigators
        Compartment), at the same time continuing on course and on
        an even keel. To add to all the past confusion, a second
        engine began to miss and smoke. The North Sea was not far
        below. Certain disaster lay ahead. A landing had to be made
        at the earliest possible moment once land was reached. The
        Navigator gave the gunners a detailed account over</p>
        <p>-63-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0067" n="64" />
        <p>the inner communication of what had happened up forward.
        Each man was given the privilege of jumping before the
        landing was to be attempted. As for himself, he would
        remain with the dead copilot. The tail gunner replied "We
        came up together and we will go down together". Three other
        voices chimed in simultaneously, "Me too". That settled the
        question that weighed heavily on the bombardier-pilot's
        mind. It would be necessary for him to attempt a landing.
        For him to land a Fortress that was in one piece would have
        been a miracle. To successfully negotiate the landing of a
        crippled airplane carrying dead and wounded personnel taxed
        his nerve beyond end.</p>
        <p>A hurried conference was held. The pilot could talk to
        the bombardier-pilot who he would coach him around the
        turns and the final approach - the engineer gunner would
        handle the throttles. It sounds easy.</p>
        <p>Near the English coast a field was sighted by the
        Navigator who had been instructed to locate a landing strip
        at the earliest possible moment once the crew had reached
        land. The bombardier tightened his grip on the big control
        wheel - his feet were forced against the rudder - glued in
        one position. Altitude fifteen hundred feet directly</p>
        <p>-64-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0068" n="65" />
        <p>above the airdrome. The wounded pilot nodded to the
        engineer and said, "Twenty inches of mercury; twenty-five
        hundred R.P.M".</p>
        <p>The final teat had started. Life or Death waited with
        open arms at the completion of this one maneuver. White
        spots showed at each knuckle joint on the Bombardier's
        hands. Hot and cold gusts raced through his body leaving a
        thin coating of water on his upper lip. One thousand feet
        and the ground was coming. up fast, The young pilot began
        "Taking her down" . "Easy on the controls" - "Dont hold 'em
        too tight" - "Turn left" - "Use more Aileron" - "Hold her
        nose up". The engineer was singing out the airspeed - "One
        hundred and fifty" - "One Forty". They were on the base leg
        when the controls began to wobble. "Buck fever&#8221; was
        extracting its fall from the Bombardier - his knees were
        vibrating the rudder pedals. "Easy on the turn" came from
        the pilot - "Hold her nose up for God ' s Sake". "Airspeed
        one thirty"- Flaps down" - "Leave the wheels up" - "Final
        approach" - "Altitude five hundred feet"- "Air speed one
        twenty". The Navigator began screaming on the inner
        communication, "Tractor dead ahead we must go around" "We
        are going to crash!" "Hurry!" - "Altitude one hundred feet"
        - "Air speed one ten" slowly announced the engineer. "Too
        late"</p>
        <p>-65-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0069" n="66" />
        <p>came the reply from the cockpit as the Bombardier
        straightened his right leg on the rudder, "Cut switches" -
        "We have arrived".</p>
        <p>Clouds of dust settled over the broken airplane. Her
        right wing was twisted and broken. Number four engine hung
        loosely in its mount. No one was injured in the crash.</p>
        <p>The R.A.F. ambulance appeared out of nowhere and came to
        a squeaking stop. The Bombardier-pilot remained seated in
        the dead copilots seat and prayed.</p>
        <p>Near the far end of the line stood a big two hundred and
        twenty pound Staff Sergeant. Two medals were being
        presented to him. The following week he received another as
        a reward for shooting down five German fighters from his
        top turret position. Captain Hughes, who was kidded by the
        boys so much because of his youthful face he tried to grow
        a mustache, flew the sergeant as top turret gunner over
        Rotterdam. Everything went wrong at once just as the enemy
        coast was crossed. Two turbos failed at the same time.
        Shortly after they were brought under control a propeller
        ran away. Hughes hung on to the target. Enemy fighters
        engaged the formation as it turned for some. Flak along the
        coast line of Holland was intense and accurate. The tail
        end ship flown by Hughes was whipped off during some
        violent evasive action, at the same time blowing a</p>
        <p>-66-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0070" n="67" />
        <p>cylinder in one engine. His position was precarious to
        say the least - sticking out like a sore thumb with Fokker
        Wulfs working the Fortress leader over. There was not a
        chance to overtake the formation and there wasn't much
        future ahead of him if he remained where he was. He pushed
        the nose of his Fortress down and started for the deck.
        Fighting enemy attackers at fifty feet above the water
        allowed a Bomber to exploit its guns to an advantage as
        well as shield its belly from attacks.</p>
        <p>The first fifteen thousand feet down were eventless.
        Hughes thought he would get away unmolested. Unfortunately
        twelve German fighters were returning from a medium
        altitude sweep and their path brought them face to face
        with the Fort on its downward plunge to safety. Twelve Huns
        and one crippled Fortress. That was a hunters paradise. To
        them it was not a question of whether they would shoot the
        Fort down, but who would get it firts. The attack developed
        rapidly. Each Hun fighter was over anxious for the "kill".
        Hughes and the crew were not exactally in the morel, to be
        "finished off" so quickly.</p>
        <p>Hughes radioed a request for assistance from friendly
        fighters who had been in the vicinity.</p>
        <p>-67-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0071" n="68" />
        <p>Help was not forth coming. The friendly "top cover" had
        been engaged early and were running dangerously low on
        fuel. They were at that time returning to their bases. Only
        one thing remained to be done - fight it out with the odds
        twelve to one.</p>
        <p>Gunners were cautioned to conserve ammunition and to
        hold their fire to close range.</p>
        <p>Without undue delay and very little precaution the Hun
        leader of the first nix 109's made his attack in formation
        from straight astern on the level. The young sergeant
        handling the two tail guns on the Fortress reported six
        bandits, six o'clock level. The copilot acknowledged by
        saying "Steady boy", "Get the leader". Those instructions
        were not necessary. Two big, brown eyes were leveled
        steadily down the stubby sighting bar above the "Stinger
        guns" pointing directly at the Hun's windshield. Either
        over confidence or utter disregard brought disaster to the
        German.</p>
        <p>At eight hundred yards the attacking fighters jockeyed
        for a better position and a sure kill. The closing speed of
        approximately two hundred miles an hour filled the Fort
        gunners sight with the Germans' aircraft rapidly six
        hundred yards, five hundred yards, four hundred yards. Both
        men waited. Each intent upon killing the other. The hunter
        and the hunted. Three hundred yards -</p>
        <p>-68-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0072" n="69" />
        <p>The enemy airplane filled the sight on the 50&#176;. The
        young sergeant pressed his triggers down. He was on target.
        Steel slugs crashed through the propeller disc and found
        their mark. The 109 nosed down. The muzzles of the 50
        calibres, like tow fingers of scorn, followed the fighters
        cockpit. The sergeant's curled ringers had frozen on the
        triggers. Heat and smoke from the overworked gun barrells
        filled his eyes. The canopy over the Huns cockpit flew off
        and fluttered crazily away to one side. Fifty yards - no
        return fire. Tiny red flames showed around the engine
        mount. The German pilots head rolled down the top of the
        fuselage and disappeared in the slip stream. The red hot
        barrens of the 50's drooped and went out of commission. The
        Sergeant looked down at his cramped fingers clutched to the
        dead guns and said, &#8220;I be damn".</p>
        <p>Fighting on the top side had not been so easy. Attacks
        were coming from nine and three o'clock low. The ball
        turret gunner had not answered to three calls from the
        copilot. The Fort's belly and sides were pounded
        continously. Hughes and the copilot were flying together
        now - wringing and twisting &#8211; cork- screwing down to
        minimum altitude. The big sergeant's turret was spinning
        like a top. A short burst from his guns sawed the wing tip
        of a fighter off.</p>
        <p>-69-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0073" n="70" />
        <p>The Germans did acrobatics before hitting the water.</p>
        <p>A twenty MM exploded in the radio compartment. Copilot
        to radio operatio, "Report". " Sir, I have been hit". Tail
        gunner to copilot, "My guns are out". Copilot to tail
        gunner, "Keep 'em swinging, they don't know you can't
        shoot".</p>
        <p>Hughes leveled off at twenty feet. Three persistent
        fighters held on delivering spasmodic attacks, hopeful that
        the delapidated Fortress would eventually go down into the
        sea. The top turret stood still momentarily. Drops of blood
        ran down the sergeants leg and formed a pool on the steel
        flooring. A burst of three shots was thrown at a fighter as
        it dove past - then a single shot - ammunition
        expended.</p>
        <p>The big boy leaned against the pilots bullet proof back
        plate, lifted the head set from Hughes' right ear, and
        said, "No more lead" - as he adjusted the manifold pressure
        levers. "Better slow down Captain if you want to make land"
        came over his shoulder as he crawled through the forward
        bom bay door.</p>
        <p>I was in the control tower at our airdrome waiting for
        Hughes to come in. We had a radio fix on his airplane and
        had plotted it continually from the coast line to our
        station. The formation, those who had returned, was in
        place. Mechanics were repairing the "sore spots" on their
        "Babies", preparing them for the next raid.</p>
        <p>-70-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0074" n="71" />
        <p>The RAF Officer in charge of Airdrome Control came out
        on top where I was standing and handed me a pair of field
        glasses saying, "Colonel, look to the North East just above
        the trees". I scanned the tree tops some seconds before the
        camouflaged "Fort" came in line with my vision. "That's
        her" I said to the controller. "Yes Sir, and she's going to
        make it in" was his reply.</p>
        <p>My heart swelled with pride as I watched "her" struggle
        for each yard. There was on burst of speed to break the
        tape after a long run. On the other hand, I was reminded of
        a swimmer who had battled a rip tide for hours slowly,
        nearly exhausted, approaching the haven of a calm
        harbor.</p>
        <p>One engine was dead. Pieces of frayed fabric from the
        flippers trailed behind like pennants ripped to shreds by
        small calibre gun fire. Daylight showed through the radio
        compartment where a 20 mm had exploded, tearing the metal
        from both sides. One wheel had fallen out of its position
        in the nacelle. It swayed back and forth like the pendelum
        on an old clock.</p>
        <p>The copilot contacted the tower. We all listened to the
        tired voice "Straight in approach"- "Stand by for crash
        landing" - "Have an ambulance handy and you'd better call
        the Chaplain"- "We have one dead boy aboard".</p>
        <p>The Fortress touched down about one third of the way
        down the runway, throwing the damaged wheel in our
        direction. We had driven out near the estimated spot.</p>
        <p>-71-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0075" n="72" />
        <p>where she would come to a stop. Sparks flew from the
        metal belly as it scraped against the concrete runway. The
        ball turret took refuge inside the damaged bomb bay.</p>
        <p>No one inside made any attempt to get out. For a short
        time I thought that a ghost ship had arrived. An ambulance
        driver opened the read door and stood still. I walked over
        and looked over his shoulder, then crawled inside.</p>
        <p>Two youngsters were lying on the floor. One's face had
        been covered with a flying jacket - he was the ball turret
        boy who would not answer the copilot's call on the inner
        communication - Dead.</p>
        <p>The other gunner on the floor looked up at me, tried to
        smile and said, "Colonel, we are back". My right foot
        slipped in a pool of blood and I nearly fell. The big
        sergeant was sitting cross legged, Indian style, near the
        bomb bay door holding two ends of a bloody handkerchief -
        an improvised tourniquet for his leg.</p>
        <p>I tried to smile when I said "Hurt much Sergeant?"
        &#8220;Not much" -"Just resting, Sir" - "But those fellows
        there", nodding towards the dead and dying, "are in a bad
        way". "You should have seen them clip those Jerrys".</p>
        <p>In the mess that night the true story was told by
        Hughes.</p>
        <p>-72-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0076" n="73" />
        <p>After the top turret gunner was hit in the leg with a
        small calibre bullet that came out the opposite side he ran
        out of ammunition and reported it to the pilot. Crawling to
        the radio compartment he found the operator wounded and
        administered first aid. The ball turret gunner failed to
        answer his call so he cranked the turret manually into
        position - pulled the dead boy out and covered his face .-
        Working his way to the waste gun position where that gunner
        was engaging one of the two remaining hues, he shot one
        down into the sea.</p>
        <p>An engine began to miss, vibrating the airplane from
        nose to tail, so he crawled forward to the cockpit, helped
        to adjust the mixture controls and returned to the radio
        compartment.</p>
        <p>The one remaining German fighter had exhausted his
        ammunition, so had everyone in the Fortress except Lt.
        Marsell who was in the bombardiers compartment. How the
        German knew that Marsell never did find out. The fighter
        would fly formation with the Fortress and Marsell would
        beckon him forward to a position where his nose gun would
        bear on him. The Hun continued to ease forward then fall
        back, always careful of that one forward gun.</p>
        <p>The big sergeant completed his emergency treatment of
        the radio gunner just in time to see the 109 crossing and
        recorssing the top of the Fortress, evidentally</p>
        <p>-73-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0077" n="74" />
        <p>looking it over - wondering why it did not go down.
        Having no ammunition for the gun but a compartment full of
        empty shells, he began throwing empty cases at the Hun's
        propeller each time he crossed the open hatch.</p>
        <p>When the English coast was reached and the lone German
        fighter had returned to his base to report "No kill&#8221;,
        if he was truthful, the big boy once again visited the
        cockpit. After checking the instruments to his
        satisfaction, he turned to Captain Hughes and said, "I
        think that I will sit down".</p>
        <p>That is where he was when I first saw him. That was the
        big sergeant the Generals were decorating that day.</p>
        <p>Two-thirty in the morning, behind black out shades, a
        conference that had lasted five hours came to an abrupt end
        - too abrupt for me.</p>
        <p>Higher command had decided that my group would move out
        to another theatre of war. We liked that. As my Operations
        Officer put it - "That's like cutting a piece of cake", "We
        opened this front and we can open another" - "In fact, we
        should be the official front opener".</p>
        <p>Pandemonia reigned within us. Our feet were itching to
        be on the move. I was laughing and bragging about what the
        group would do the very first day it</p>
        <p>-74-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0078" n="75" />
        <p>arrived at its newly assigned station when Colonel
        Claude Duncan said "I forgot to tell you Army but you are
        not going with the Group". I thought I would die -</p>
        <p>I visited the boys once before they pulled out. We had a
        farewell party and I was presented with the slogan that
        hung over our bar - "Here's to the Hun a splendid fighter -
        and here's to the ____th, His Master". Many pen points were
        urined &gt;ruined&lt; inscribing names on the face of that
        memento. After the war I am going to hand it over my
        private bar for all to look at. All of the boys have been
        invited to come and drink a toast with me - and reminisce.
        Some will not make the round trip. We will toast them - and
        remember always.</p>
        <p>The following three months I occupied a grandstand seat
        in the U.K. From my position I watched the VIII Bomber
        Command grow from twelve Fortresses on the first raid to
        hundreds. New groups arrived and I flew with them trying to
        show and tell them all we had learned on the initial raids.
        I saw them struggle, stagger and fall as we had done. We
        labored day and night as they regained their footing
        stronger than ever before. Through it all one man's
        compelling personality and guiding influence watched over
        us all the way - without which we would have been lost. I
        saw him gaunt of face, worried and tired, battling to the
        end for his own - Lieutenant General Ira Eaker.</p>
        <p>-75-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0079" n="76" />
        <p>Christmas 1942 was spent with Colonel Jim Wallace who
        was commanding a heavy group in the U.K. Someone said it
        was Christmas otherwise we would not have known the
        difference.</p>
        <p>All day we had floundered through ankle deep mud
        inspecting equipment and runways. Darkness, which came
        early in December, ran us inside to Jim's quarters. Mud and
        a complete blackout are not congenial running mates. The
        knees of my slacks gave evidence of how completely one
        could ruin a uniform by slipping down. Jim and I intended
        discussing a new formation that night - we never got around
        to it.</p>
        <p>A Squadron Commander whom we both had known for a long
        time came by. He was dressed true Texas style high heel
        boots and a ten gallon hat - in the place of two six
        shooters he was armed with a gallon jug. Jim and I disarmed
        him. The jug was bounced from one to the other a few times
        and before we realized it the three of us were on a cross
        country flying at ten thousand feet over El Paso,
        Texas.</p>
        <p>Wallace had saved his Christmas packages and was
        intending to open them the next morning. That's what he
        thought. After mild persuasion by twisting Jim's arm up his
        back, he agreed to show us what he had. The first two
        packages were fine and full of ture to form Christmas
        presents, to include a bright colored civilian tie. Who and
        where in the Hell did they think we were fighting</p>
        <p>-76-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0080" n="77" />
        <p>anyway? The next package was about eight inches square
        with lots of stickers and ribbon around it. That was
        certain to be really something. It broke up the party. Just
        to keep Santa from slipping down a six inch flue and
        surprising us I stationed myself near the stove (I could
        have sat on it for all the heat it was giving out) holding
        a pair of pincher tongs.</p>
        <p>Wallace got set for the grand opening. To make it legal
        we bounced the jug again. Clem W, the cowboy, took one more
        swallow than we did so we did it over again. Jim kissed the
        beautiful little box, spoke a few sweet nothings about his
        wife, and pulled out the contents - a lovely pair of
        knitted ear muffs lay gently in his hand. I laughed, which
        was a mistake. Clem gave a rebel yell and disappeared in
        the darkness trailing "Yoo hoo! Wallace" "Yoo hoo!" I shall
        never repeat what Wallace said - I do not like
        divorces.</p>
        <p>I saw Wallace and Clem two days later. They were both
        old men. Jim had lost his two wing men, shot down by
        fighters, over an enemy submarine base. Clem's squadron had
        been mauled considerably but had returned in good shape. I
        did not mention the ear muffs or say "Yoo hoo!"</p>
        <p>-77-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0081" n="78" />
        <p>The first day of January I received orders to report to
        Bomber Command Headquarters. I had received a similar order
        some six months before and was frightened out of my boots.
        This time I merely said to myself "Hold your hats boys,
        here we go again".</p>
        <p>Much to my surprise General Eaker greeted me with "Army,
        I have recommended you for promotion to Brigadier General".
        He had surprised me so many times before I was positive
        nothing was new until that moment. My tongue got tied up in
        the roof of my mouth and I didn't get to say "I thank you".
        The General brought me back to reality with, "But I want
        you to do one more little job for me". Where had I heard
        that before. I knew him too well to discount what he
        intimated when he said "little job".</p>
        <p>The following day I packed the second time for combat
        duty with a Fortress group.</p>
        <p>I checked in at the guard gate and reported to the
        Adjutant that I had as assumed command.</p>
        <p>My quarters were located and I moved in enmasse, one
        cross country bag of clothes and my shoes. I couldn't leave
        that pair of shoes behind even though Colonel Grey made a
        better proposition than he did when I was assigned to
        combat the first time.</p>
        <p>My quarters were not different from those I had lived in
        August. My friends the mice were not there. On the other
        hand there was a different atmosphere around</p>
        <p>-78-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0082" n="79" />
        <p>the place. Where we groped around and wasted time
        seemingly accomplishing nothing these fellows had the
        answers. There was no hurry and bustle or lost motion. Each
        man had a job to do and he did it with machine like
        precision. Over my door hung a painted sign which read -
        "Never tell your troubles to others. Half of those you tell
        do not care - the other half are damn glad of it".</p>
        <p>I had arrived in the "Big League". Two days before I had
        been an interested spectator - not even a substitute on the
        team. Now I was lead off man in the World Series.</p>
        <p>I inspected a few quarters and the hangar line - and
        there in a vain way I was insulted. Nearly all Fortresses
        are covered with names. Through mere curiosity I was
        reading all I came to - "Big Boy" - "My Gal Sal" - "Berlin
        Buster II" - "Berlin Buster I" had been salvaged - too many
        bullet holes in it. I eventually came to one Fortress that
        was literally covered with either names or "warnings".
        Outside one waste gun position was "Shoot you're faded". A
        pair of dice showing a total of seven points served as a
        background. The other gunner was more conservative - all he
        had up was "Danger! Men at Work". Over the top of the tail
        guns was simply one word - "Boo!". As I passed the small
        door that serves as an entrance to that position I read -
        "A sergeants sanctuary where Generals</p>
        <p>-79-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0083" n="80" />
        <p>fear to trod". That's when I was insulted. I thought to
        myself - as soon as I am promoted I will disprove that
        theary. Walking stiff legged away from the airplane I
        glanced back in contempt at the radio gunners position and
        read - "If you can read this, you're too damn close". I
        Couldn't help but laugh.</p>
        <p>Lt. Col. J. W. Wilson, Operations Officer of the Group,
        met me with one of the finest greetings one man can give
        another at a time like that - "Colonel, we have heard lots
        about you. The boys are ready to go any place". A few
        minutes later as we entered the officers mess a young
        Bombardier came up to me and without catching his breath
        said, "You're Colonel Armstrong arent you?". "You have come
        here to lead us to Happy Valley, haven't you" - "Well, the
        day you go you can count me out". "Happy Valley" is the
        name the boys gave the Rhur. The little fellow did go to
        Happy Valley but failed to return.</p>
        <p>When one mentions "Officers' Mess" there is a natural
        tendency to connect that place with food only. In reality
        serving meals there is only a minor function. Nearly
        everything and certainly anything can happen in an
        officers' mess. There the officers write home, play games,
        listen to the radio, drink and dance. The one where I was
        was also a "Score Board" for raids accomplished - good or
        bad.</p>
        <p>-80-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0084" n="81" />
        <p>After each raid the leader was forced to - if necessary
        - stand on the shoulders of three officers who had also
        been on the raid and "smoke" the name of the objective on
        the ceiling of the club room. The smoke used came from a
        long candle held high above the head. Naturally the hot
        tallow dripping from the candle ran down the sleeve - more
        often into the face. The word must be spelled correctly and
        written legibly. Wilhelmshaven is not easy I assure you.
        When the word has been completed to the satisfaction of all
        concerned, three youngsters who have been circling the
        room, at top speed imitating a Focke Wulf fighter dive at
        the knees of the boys supporting the "Ceiling Writer".
        Gravity completes the job.</p>
        <p>I noticed some half moon splotches on the far wall -
        they were about two feet from the floor. When I started in
        their direction a Bombardier volunteered to explain them to
        me. It seemed that each time a target was not reached
        because of bad weather - or for any other reason as a
        matter of fact - the operations officer was caught and
        brought in. After a mock trial, which automatically carried
        a conviction and penalty, the poor operations officer was
        relieved of his pants and shorts. He was allowed to walk
        around the room and pray off his sin, which added to his
        embarrassment, before he was blacked with candle smoke.
        Amid loud cheers and chanting the official "Blacker" would
        solemnly apply the smoke and release the victim to the
        executioners. With much</p>
        <p>-81-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0085" n="82" />
        <p>precision but very little accuracy two officers would
        swing the victim by his hands and feet preparatory to
        smacking his black spot against the wall. Thus originated
        the "Ops Spot". I looked around for the Operations Officer
        who came in with me - he had gone.</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0086" n="83" />
        <p>Clock time in the UK is not the dominating criterion.
        That is, concerning the VIII Bomber Command. Neither is tea
        time. However, its mighty easy to acquire the custom of
        &#8220;eating a snack&#8221; between meals. The all
        important issue is - how many raids can be made each thirty
        days. Sleet or snow, rain or shine, the big question is-
        When re do we raid?</p>
        <p>Unless one can actually see a raiding force as it
        assembles and departs the English Coast it is impossible to
        even imagine what it looks like; - what form it takes after
        the leader points the nose of his aircraft towards the
        objective. Many can recall having seen three or thirty
        airplanes in formation at one time or another during peace
        time to be a spectator as three, four or six hundred
        Fortresses pass overhead is awly inspiring to say the
        least. To be beneath them when our Bombardiers sing "Bombs
        Away" must be Hell.</p>
        <p>I have often wondered what the German people think when
        their alert is sounded in the day time. No one knows where
        the Forts will strike. They do know that bombs will rain
        down on one city or another; they always do. One of our
        boys who was shot down in a target area reported that he
        was walking along a highway ten miles from the target hit
        by the Forts the following day. When the bombs exploded on
        the target he was bounced off the ground approximately
        eight inches.</p>
        <p>-83-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0087" n="84" />
        <p>Fortress Crews do not casually walk out to their
        airplanes, fly away, bomb and return home. When they push
        the throttles forward for the take off they are performing
        their alloted duty which is only one of many necessary to
        achieve the results desired.</p>
        <p>Long before the bombs are dropped men have worked long
        hard hours preparing the ground essentials. All targets are
        "Cased". Enemy ground gun installations are studied and
        their fire power computed. For instance, if one route to
        the bomb release line carries the formation within range of
        two hundred guns and another route over only one hundred
        guns, the latter is chosen. Combat Crews fly the course
        they are directed to fly.</p>
        <p>Bomb loadings are not the result of guess work. The type
        of bomb capable of penetrating the buildings and producing
        maximum results on a particular target are ordered after
        hours of deliberate study by ground personnel.</p>
        <p>Bombing missions are by no stretch of the imagination
        cross country flights. Prescribed routes are flown only
        after a minute study of many routes has been made. The
        timing of the flight is as accurately planned as a quick
        opening play off tackle on a football field. The Combat
        Crews complete the mission; fighting to and from the target
        and return to base. Hidden from view are those who slave to
        make the missions successful. They ask for no
        recognition,</p>
        <p>-84-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0088" n="85" />
        <p>complain very little, swell with pride when the Bomber
        Crews return - a job well done - unsung heroes all.</p>
        <p>Combat crew members are not as superstitious as one
        might be led to believe after listening to the many
        peculiarities they indulge in. They do have the conviction
        that if a "Charm" works once it will work again.</p>
        <p>I recall one Captain who required all personnel aboard
        his airplane to join in the sing-song indulged in by
        &gt;His&lt; crew members after the fighting subsided. On
        one trip he had a General officer with him who made the
        flight as an observer. Halfway across the Channel &gt;ON
        THE RETURN TRIP&lt; the "singing bee" started. The B. C.
        nodded his head in approval but did not participate. The
        Captain called a halt to the singing and announced to the
        crew that their passenger was not in the mood to join in.
        Over the inner communication which was connected to the
        ranking officer's head set came the demand from the tail
        gunner, "Throw hi&gt;m&lt; n overboard". The Bombardier
        sanctioned the suggestion and replie&gt;d&lt; e, "Bomb bay
        doors going down". The high ranking officer was singing at
        the top of his voice when the Bomber landed at Base.</p>
        <p>I had one Squadron Commander who would not lead a
        mission unless a certain WAA&gt;FJ officer who was
        stationed on our Post had perched her cap on his too large
        head. All the way around the perimeter track and especially
        in front of the Control Tower the youngster doffed the
        female R.A.F. cap at ground personnel. At high altitude
        after the oxygen mask had been adjusted the WAAC's cap sat
        serenely on his head</p>
        <p>-85-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0089" n="86" />
        <p>through flak and fighter attacks. On close in attacks
        the Germans must have questioned whether they were fighting
        man or woman, or both.</p>
        <p>The first person to complete twenty-five missions for us
        was an American with a Russian name. Everyone was deeply
        interested in the return landing of the "Fort" he was
        completing his combat tour in. A reception committee had
        formed and waited at the dispersal point for the Sergeant
        Gunner. Red paint and a bicycle had been transported across
        the airdrome in a truck. Before the propeller blast had
        cleared the triumphant sergeant was pulled from the
        airplane and relieved of all his clothing except shorts,
        which were too short for the balmy weather we were
        experiencing at that time. The numeral "25" was painted in
        red on his chest and back, after which he was placed on the
        bicycle and told to ride to the barracks. He ran the
        gauntlet of ground crews who showered him with soft mud
        without becoming a casualty. To him that run was more
        dangerous than the last one completed over enemy territory.
        The rascal "sneaked" two more raids before we caught up
        with him with an official order eliminating him from combat
        duty.</p>
        <p>I couldn't cast disparaging remarks at the others. All
        the crews were will informed of the Baby Shoe I carried
        with me as a good luck charm. They knew that the thirteen
        year old piece of foot wear had seen rough service before
        its original owner discarded it because his big toe
        became</p>
        <p>-86-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0090" n="87" />
        <p>exposed - and that I left a practice formation once to
        return for it. From that day on it was a certainty that I
        had that shoe with me if I had my shirt on. Its getting so
        old now, - "fourteen", - I carry it in a special case -
        always.</p>
        <p>-87-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0091" n="88" />
        <p>The Group I commanded was a veteran. It had been in the
        Theatre many months and had bombed every place of
        importance along the French and Dutch coast, as well as
        important installations inland. So many trips were made to
        the Lorient the crews casually spoke of them as "milk
        runs". No one goes to Lorient anymore - who wants to bomb a
        ghost city.</p>
        <p>The boys were interested in any raid ordered by Bomber
        Command but they were growing restless. In their mind was a
        feeling that Germany proper should feel the shook of their
        bombs. As one boy mildly expressed himself by saying,
        "Those German fighter boys shoot at us each time we cross
        the Channel so let's go over and blow his house down".</p>
        <p>We had never been to Germany proper. The crews were on
        edge and eager to carry the fight to the Hun.- all the way
        to his front door steps. They were anxious to "test" him in
        his own back yard - and &#8220;make him like it".</p>
        <p>There was a unanimous feeling among the crews that they
        were Germany bound the day I arrived. Some embarrassing
        questions were put to me which I could not afford to
        answer. After all there are some secrets attached to a
        military operations that cannot be discussed even with the
        crews.</p>
        <p>One night about nine o'clock the phone that was a direct
        connection to my Operations office rang. The voice
        mechanically said, "Something cooking Colonel".</p>
        <p>-88-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0092" n="89" />
        <p>Personally I didn't feel that there was any need for me
        to hurry down to be informed of the mission. I was certain
        that it was "the mission"&gt;.&lt; &#8211; &gt;W&lt; we had
        been waiting for it - expecting it daily. Now that orders
        had come through we would brief it and fly it as
        routine.</p>
        <p>After I had shaved and shined my shoes; two things I
        always did before going on a raid, I walked into the Ops
        Block. Ordinarily the place is as quiet as a tomb and the
        personnel there working equally as quietly. Not ture this
        time. Two officers were rangling with many profane words
        which were directed at each other. I was ten feet inside
        the office before they realized my presence and quieted
        down long enough for me to inquire as to the unnecessary
        noise. Both youngsters began talking at the same time. They
        were told to be quiet while the Assistant Operations
        Officer explained that they were arguing the question of
        which one of the two could go on the mission - only one
        could be away from the station when a raid was flown - and
        each was accusing the other of cheating him out of a ride,
        especially this one. Why this particular raid I asked. Both
        antagonists answered simultaneously Its over
        Germany.</p>; 
        <p>Up to that instant I had not attached any exceptional
        significance to the raid. Suddenly the full realization
        what we were about to accomplish caused me to tingle
        inside. The two boys were told that both could go on the
        raid if they'd "Kiss and make up". With broad grins on
        their faces they shook hands and all went to work
        frantically.</p>
        <p>-89-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0093" n="90" />
        <p>When a combat order is received by a Combat Group, day
        or night, things really begin to happen. Everyone does what
        is expressed in a short phrase, "Cook on two burners". On
        the other hand if for any reason progress is retarded they
        say, "We are chopping but no chips are flying". Most of the
        time they "Cook on two burners".</p>
        <p>Telephones ring and short crisp messages are delivered.
        Each aircraft is checked. Bomb loadings are issued,
        briefing time is set, the Charge of quarters is given a
        time to call all crews. Transportation is notified when and
        where to be. The whole problem is reviewed from beginning
        to end. Taxi and take off times are worked out. Assembly
        places for Squadrons, Groups, and Wings are designated. The
        target is studied.- &gt;C&lt; courses plotted to and from
        the target. Guns are loaded and checked. Coordination plans
        with other participating units are reviewed. Errors are
        corrected. Plans are sometimes changed on a moments notice.
        Those and a few dozen other problems are routine.</p>
        <p>Four A.M., briefing time, found us working hurriedly.
        What had been origionally anticipated as a calm evening - a
        routine mission - developed into a cyclone. Everyone was
        excited. I couldn't stand still. The boys had me doing it
        too - Singing, Hail! Hail, the Gangs all here. What the
        Hell do we care now.</p>
        <p>-90-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0094" n="91" />
        <p>Our briefing room which was none too large was over
        flowing with crew members. Everyone was there - those who
        were scheduled for the raid and those who were not. Those
        members not scheduled were trying to bribe those who were
        to remain at home. The offers were fantastic varying from
        perfume to silk hose.</p>
        <p>The tension was so great at the time I entered the room
        the atmosphere could be cut with a knife. All of the crews
        knew where they were going, but none dared breathe it
        before briefing. Something had to be done as an attempt to
        relieve conditions before briefing could begin. I stepped
        out on the platform and said, "Wilhelmshaven". The roof of
        the building nearly blew off after a few seconds there was
        quiet.</p>
        <p>As is customary, the Intelligence Officer opened the
        briefing, "Gentlemen, the target for today is an important
        installation in Germany proper". Following the description
        of the target, its importance to the enemy and why we were
        bombing it at that particular hour of the day, the course
        to be flown was uncovered. Sighs came from all quarters of
        the room. On all previous raids altitude had been gained
        over England. The course laid out on the screen projected
        far into the North Sea before it turned towards the target.
        We were faking a long end run at low altitude before
        cutting back across tackle at high altitude.</p>
        <p>After briefing, the crews disappeared in the dark. Take
        off was at daylight. Far down the hangar line laughing</p>
        <p>-91-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0095" n="92" />
        <p>voices could be heard. "Cat Calls" were made for the
        benefit of some who were not lucky enough to get a
        ride.</p>
        <p>There was the usual bumping of heads against metal
        inside the dark airplane. As usual I struggled through the
        Bomb Bay and swore a little. Stomach muscles were drawn
        tight - they did it every time and from all past
        indications they will continue to do it.</p>
        <p>Daylight and taxi time found us in the cockpit adjusting
        oxygen masks.</p>
        <p>The "All clear to taxi!" signal had been given and we
        were moving out slowly when a running figure appeared near
        my left wing. Parachute harness, oxygen mask, coveralls and
        a small tool kit were suspended in mid air behind the
        apparition.</p>
        <p>The airplane was stopped. One of the waist gunners
        opened the side door and yanked the man in. A few seconds
        later as we were turning on to the take off strip a panting
        voice said, "I just did make it, Army". "I brought my tool
        kit and will work on the turrets if they go out". I thought
        to myself, "What the Hell do I have with me now - a crazy
        man?". After the take off I looked around to find one of my
        best friends from London smiling at me.</p>
        <p>One turn at the assembly point brought the other groups
        behind us.</p>
        <p>We headed out to sea at minimum altitude.</p>
        <p>'Twas a beautiful spectacle to watch. All around us</p>
        <p>-92-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0096" n="93" />
        <p>formations were jockeying for positions. Those in the
        low position were casting large, fast moving shadows on the
        sea. Reflections from the high outfits resembled small
        round balls skipping across the lazy swell. The sea was
        calm and green. Bewildered fishermen lay down their tools
        and gazed at the huge birds of war gracefully dipping their
        wings in response to the gentle gusts of wind.</p>
        <p>Many sea miles were flown in a tight defensive
        formation. God help the Hun who attacked the formation at
        that altitude. There was no air space between the formation
        and the sea to which he could dive for safety after an
        attack. Thousands of bullets were awaiting anyone who
        hesitated above.</p>
        <p>When the point of climb-was reached the Navigator
        pressed his throat "Mike" button and said, "Going Up".
        Lieutenant Colonel Claude Putnam, my Copilot, warned the
        crew that we were going to altitude. Everyone reached for
        his oxygen mask. The altimeter hand was gradually winding
        around the dial reading off ten, eleven, twelve thousand
        feet. Our bombing altitude was twenty-five.</p>
        <p>There was a sudden commotion behind me. I looked around
        - "Hank" B., my passenger, was trying to squeeze through
        the opening under the top turret. His hair was disheavled -
        one arm was in his flying suit jacket and one was free -
        the flying boots he wore were not fastened, All in all he
        was a worried man. I couldn't help but laugh at him -
        momentarily. Finally l said, "Hank, what is your
        trouble"?</p>
        <p>-93-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0097" n="94" />
        <p>His reply was, "I can't find my oxygen mask". "Hell man
        you have got to find it, we are on our way to altitude" -
        "You can't live up there without oxygen". From a dry throat
        came, "Don't you think that I know that" - "It's beginning
        to worry me". Putnam who had been listening to the
        conversation leaned over near enough for Hank hear him say
        to me, "Let's pitch him out the side door now he's going to
        die anyway".</p>
        <p>From our altitude Germany was a peaceful country. The
        beaches and terrain could have been transplanted from a
        dozen other places we had flown over before. Yet, there was
        a feeling inside us that everything below was from another
        world. Strange lands and strange people. One thing was
        certain &#8211; we were over Germany.</p>
        <p>At the briefing we had been told of the ground defense
        around Wilhelmshaven. The R.A.F. had returned from night
        raids over the city with reports of intense and accurate
        flak.</p>
        <p>The lead airplane methodically drifting from one side of
        the course to the other in slight evasive action, the huge
        formation snaked across the coast line between heavy A.A.
        gun installations and headed for the German city. A few
        fighters came up and made two half hearted attacks. One
        fighter went down. The others withdrew to a safe range and
        watched us. The Germans couldn't believe what they saw.
        They had been told that bombs would not devastate their
        homeland.</p>
        <p>-94-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0098" n="95" />
        <p>Long since the R.A.F. had disproved that theary. They
        had been promised faithfully that Americans would not bomb
        them in daylight.</p>
        <p>High to the North East an invading force approached
        their city. Fifteen minutes later that force invaded,
        soaked a part of the waterfront and withdrew.</p>
        <p>The huge formation, flying the course as briefed,
        straightened out for the bombing run. Drifting cloud banks
        and the Fortresses raced each other for the target. The
        clouds won - the city was saved momentarily. The safest run
        up for us was lost.</p>
        <p>Slowly the formation began an encircling maneuver. Small
        black clouds formed to the left of us. Ground guns were
        defying our entry. Two bright colored flares exploded near
        us signalling our corrected altitude to batteries below.
        Evasive action was started - none too soon. A barrage broke
        near our low group - too close for comfort.</p>
        <p>A break in the cloud layer widened. The Navigator spoke
        on the inner communication, "This is the heavily defended
        run but we'll have to take it" - "Turn left-left" - "On
        course". We had been waiting for an opportunity to strike
        quickly. The bomb bay doors had been opened minutes before.
        Apparently the enemy anti aircraft crews did not anticipate
        our maneuver. Lazily we floated around the city watching
        and waiting. Suddenly the formation came to life, turned
        quickly and darted in. Not a shot was fired at the lead
        group before the familiar voice sang out, "Bombs Away".</p>
        <p>-95-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0099" n="96" />
        <p>Putnam and I were basking in ease, chuckling to
        ourselves how we had fooled the "squareheads", when
        suddenly we both left our seats and strained against the
        safety belt. A salvo had exploded beneath us. Fifty feet
        higher and we would have been blown out of the sky. Captain
        MacKay, leading our high squadron, disappeared behind black
        smoke.</p>
        <p>Acrobats in the middle ring of a three ring circus could
        not have done better than our group did. The "Fort" we had
        gracefully stood on end and turned. Every pilot went into
        his pet "flak dance". Never before had I seen Bombers do
        acrobatics in formation.</p>
        <p>I looked around expecting to find my friend "Hank"
        inspecting a gun turret. Much to my surprise he was busily
        engages in shaking his fist at flak bursts that had come up
        ahead of us.</p>
        <p>I began to breathe again, must have been holding my
        breath a long time, when as the sky cleared - not for long
        &#8211; &gt;We had lost three thousand feet in a dive
        getting away from the target and had unconsciously levelled
        off above an ENEMY convoy accompanied by gun boats. I
        couldn't tell who was soared worse. We began to climb and
        turn; they began to zig and zag. A couple of "poops" came
        up from one boat as we turned for the open sea and
        eventually home,</p>
        <p>The first U.S. daylight raid over Germany was
        history.</p>
        <p>-96-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0100" n="97" />
        <p>My promotion orders came through shortly after the
        Wilhelmshaven raid. Two of my officers, Coleman and Putnam,
        changed my rank for me. Personally, I think they were more
        interested in the insignia they took from me than they were
        in my promotion. Anyway they matched for the pair of eagles
        - both needed them badly.</p>
        <p>Awakening the next morning I ventured a "one eye peep"
        around my room before attempting to tackle the cold floor
        with my warm feet.</p>
        <p>The &gt;first&lt; thing I saw was a blouse with a star
        on the shoulder hanging on a hook. My head disappeared
        under the cover where it remained while I figured out why
        "that guy" was hanging "his" clothes in my room. I hadn't
        been told that one of "those fellows"&gt;Read&lt; [written
        sideways in margin] was to visit my Base. One of "those
        fellows" lived there - the blouse was my own.</p>
        <p>Then and there two very important realizations became
        clear to me. One, that I had been promoted to greater
        responsibility carrying with it unending hours of hard
        work, and that my government expected and would receive my
        every effort directed efficiently towards ending the war.
        Two, that I had been detached forever from my Combat Group
        as its commander. That stung a little. My consolation
        was&gt;:&lt; &gt;If&lt; I could not command them as a group
        I could lead them into Combat as a unit.</p>
        <p>I did not locate the tail gunner who had painted
        something insinuative about a General being afraid to sit
        in his seat. Perhaps its best - I would have been scared.
        Instead a raid to Breast was scheduled and I led it.</p>
        <p>-97-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0010" n="98" />
        <p>Being convinced after that trip that the Germans
        Couldn't shoot me down any faster as a General than they
        did as A Colonel, I scheduled myself for a raid on Antwerp.
        That was nearly a mistake on my part - nearly but not
        quite.</p>
        <p>-98-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0102" n="99" />
        <p>The raid to Antwerp was scheduled and I rode as
        observer. The nature of my mission was to check the pilot,
        Lt. Col. J. W. Wilson, and copilot, Captain Regan, as Wing
        leaders.</p>
        <p>Spitfires covered the formation to Ghent. Far ahead
        German fighters could be seen gaining altitude for the
        attack. As the RAF fighters were forced to leave us because
        of fuel shortage, the Huns moved in. The following twenty
        five minutes was concentrated Hell.</p>
        <p>Approximately twenty-five head-on attacks were made on
        the lead Fortress. Her number four engine was hit. The main
        spar in each wing was shot up. At least two 20 mm shells
        ripped through the nose and cabin, damaging the hydraulic
        and oxygen systems.</p>
        <p>Wilson crash landed on our airdrome - one more 20 mm
        would have forced us down in Belgium.</p>
        <p>The notes that follow were made as time and events would
        allow.</p>
        <p>-99-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0103" n="100" />
        <p>BY BRIGADIER GENERAL FRANK ARMSTRONG</p>
        <p>A United States Bomber Station in England - (Delayed)
        (AP)</p>
        <p>Stood behind pilot while he took off...</p>
        <p>Moved to Navigator-bombardier compartment and rode with
        them until we gained considerable altitude, when I returned
        to a position behind the pilot and copilot...</p>
        <p>Adjusted oxygen mask and arranged parachute so
        top-turret mechanism would not knock it down---</p>
        <p>Placed the pilot's parachute in a better position for
        him to get if an emergency arose...</p>
        <p>Made sign language to pilot to be on alert for enemy
        attackers through thin overcast in early stages of the
        attack...</p>
        <p>Pointed out two smoke trails coming out of France high
        to our left...</p>
        <p>Checked time of turn as we left the English Coast...</p>
        <p>Checked on the formation by looking through the side
        window...</p>
        <p>Looked at Belgium as we crossed the coast line,
        wondering how those people were doing down there...</p>
        <p>CURSES NAZIS</p>
        <p>Cursed a Focke-Wulf 190 as it came in to our right.</p>
        <p>Watched the first enemy attack develop ahead of the
        formation.</p>
        <p>Pointed out the attackers to the pilot as they became
        more ferocious and concentrated.</p>
        <p>-100-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0104" n="101" />
        <p>Pressed the control column forward as a FW-190 met us
        head on. Back seat driving and I was sorry about it. FW-190
        rolled under wing, missing a collision by a few feet.</p>
        <p>Watched fire from cannons as Germans increased their
        attack. (Only one cannon was firing from a few of the enemy
        aircraft - out of ammunition, maybe)</p>
        <p>Flinched as shell exploded the oxygen and hydraulic
        systems.</p>
        <p>Looked at pilot and copilot to see how badly they were
        wounded.</p>
        <p>Began to feel queer---checked oxygen supply --- pressure
        was down to 100.</p>
        <p>Tried to attach oxygen lead to emergency supply bottle.
        Couldn't get it to fasten, so tore up mask.</p>
        <p>Copilot reached for emergency oxygen bottle. Gave it to
        him and asked for a whiff and he gave it to me.</p>
        <p>Pilot told me that captain Robert J. Salitrnik,
        Navigator, had been hit and wanted some assistance. Got
        another whiff of oxygen from copilot and started to forward
        compartment.</p>
        <p>Crawled through hydraulic fluid on hands and knees to
        navigator. (Editor&#8217;s note: The Navigator had received
        a severe sharpnel wound in the leg and was bleeding badly)
        Used oxygen mask connecting hose as tourniquet on
        navigator's leg.</p>
        <p>Helped to take navigator's parachute off and stretch him
        out. Rearranged tourniquet and gave it to bombardier to
        hold (Had my own thumb &gt;i&lt; on it.)..</p>
        <p>-101-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0105" n="102" />
        <p>MAPS CONFUSING</p>
        <p>Took navigation data out of navigator's pocket a tried
        to locate our position on the map. Couldn't get maps
        straight...</p>
        <p>Crawled back to pilot's compartment to give him compass
        course on the paper... lost information on the floor and
        crawled back for it...</p>
        <p>Rearranged tourniquet and continued to nose of aircraft.
        Put on throat mike and head set. Called pilot to inform him
        we would be forced to land at the first RAF station because
        the navigator was seriously wounded - gave pilot course to
        fly.</p>
        <p>Could not locate any field on the ground.</p>
        <p>Crawled over to navigator and slapped his face. Looked
        at his eyes. Requested pilot to get down as rapidly as
        possible as all oxygen for navigator had been used...</p>
        <p>Sat by navigator feeling his head. Rearranged
        tourniquet. Held navigator's arm while bombardier tried to
        give him a hypo. (Fluid ran out before needle got in)</p>
        <p>Sat down.</p>
        <p>FIRE STARTS</p>
        <p>Pilot called to report a fire had started in the
        cockpit. Remained seated. Just sat until lower altitude was
        reached...</p>
        <p>Crawled back to pilot's compartment and notified him I
        would stand by rear door with fire extinguisher ready. Sat
        behind ammunition box for crash landing...</p>
        <p>-102-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0106" n="103" />
        <p>Opened door and ran around to front of airplane after it
        had stopped - no fires &#8230;</p>
        <p>Placed $400 in the back seat of an automobile and walked
        away and left it ... Forgot what driver's name was. Tried
        to get the pilot to go over for a cup of coffee &#8230;</p>
        <p>Money was handed to me later...</p>
        <p>Drank coffee and ate doughnuts...</p>
        <p>Began to function normally.</p>
        <p>-103-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0107" n="104" />
        <p>My combat career ended suddenly, by orders from higher
        command. I had been assigned other duties. There would be
        no more leaving the office for hours just to go on a
        bombing raid.</p>
        <p>My Headquarters were situated near the flying line.
        Fortresses going out or returning from raids blew dust
        against the office window. The familiar sound of squeaking
        brakes seeped beneath the crack under the door. Often day
        dreams wrapped me in a shroud of fantastic desires. I could
        not convince my inner self that I was an "old man" -- Too
        old for combat. That youngsters, with their courage and
        skill, had doomed me forever to watch from the sideline as
        they flew on to victory. Deep down in my heart I was proud
        of them - proud to be counted as a member of their
        clan.</p>
        <p>A grape vine rumor brought news to our Base that I was
        returning to the States. Two emotions simultaneously began
        to tug at my heart strings. The unabated desire to be with
        family once again - nineteen months away from them was a
        long time in any language.</p>
        <p>The other force was equally as strong. Living on the
        same base with Combat crews; sleeping near and eating in
        their mess hall; flying in the same sky where they fought
        and lived and died, saturated ones blood with bonds that
        were hard to sever.</p>
        <p>As the day of departure drew nearer I realized more
        keenly what the final day &gt;hour&lt;-would mean to me.
        Casually</p>
        <p>-104-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0108" n="105" />
        <p>I walked the perimeter track each day filling my
        innermost being with the wonder and glory displayed by the
        youngsters who flew the Fortresses.</p>
        <p>One day my tour brought me to a dispersal point where
        many soldiers were working. Some were busily engaged in
        making a few final adjustments on the motors. Others were
        &#8220;piddling&#8221; around doing nothing is particular.
        The Crew Chief reminded me of a young mother fussing around
        her new baby just before sending it off to see its
        grandparents.</p>
        <p>One of the Engineering Officers rode up on his bicycle.
        He must have reached the ripe old age of twenty-four. We
        joined in conversation. I learned that the Fortress was
        being groomed for her last flight. She had completed
        twenty-seven trips across the target. Her crew was proud of
        the record she had made. No wonder they were fondly
        caressing her that day. Soon she would be replaced by a new
        airplane. The two of us had one thing in common.</p>
        <p>The Engineering Officer excused himself and rode
        away.</p>
        <p>I stood where he left me and allowed my thoughts to
        ramble.</p>
        <p>There I stood before a mighty aircraft - a
        &gt;&#8220;&lt; omen &gt;Queen&lt; of the Sky.&#8221; She
        was majestic even in her last days. Along her sleek sides
        small metal plates had been riveted in irregular lines.
        Small calibre gun fire had at some time or other ripped
        into her innards. 20 calibres had torn away one side of the
        flippers. That happened a long time ago. The replaced
        fabric had faded</p>
        <p>-105-</p>
        <pb facs="00001040_0109" n="106" />
        <p>and now nearly corresponded to the origional color worn
        by the rudder. Small holes beneath the pilot's seat and
        replaced plexiglass in the navigator's compartment were
        mute evidence of head on attacks through which she had
        battled and returned to Base victorious.</p>
        <p>The Engineering Officer returned carrying an armful of
        flying equipment. I could see my name on the flying jacket
        as he came near me and stopped. Silently he laid the jacket
        across my arm. I asked, 'Why this?&#8221;. He replied that
        the Group Commander thought that I would like to fly "her"
        to "Fortress Heaven" where she would be retired from
        combat.</p>
        <p>My heart pounded with pride as l climbed to the cockpit.
        We flew away together - the Queen and I - she to her haven
        of rest and me to my home in the States.</p>
        <p>-106-</p>
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